When I was a kid, I wanted to be a Regular Pioneer. Did that. When I was a Regular Pioneer, I wanted to be a MS. Never got there. Last year when I was 'reaching out' I wanted to be a MS again. Never happened, in fact the whole fiasco of them recommending me and then being put on hold because it was too soon from my reinstatement made me realize that I was just another piece of meat in the org.
1 year later I am irregular, low hour (i.e. fake 2 hr reports) and about to be inactive. The org can kiss my ass.