StephanieH, It takes time not to feel guilty for being happy or enjoying ones days as best they can now instead of postponing it until perfection arrives.
I remember people feeling guilty for not feeling guilty enough. Toward the end of my JW career, I began to realize that attending meetings was like going to a funeral 3 times a week. Even at JW get togethers you couldn't get away from it. Someone would have to pray and mention our need for forgiveness, Jesus sacrafice and mention either our desperate need for the new system or strength and endurance to make it through this wicked one. You were never allowed to live in the moment and just enjoy it without being reminded of your own mortality....even at a picnic. Even when we used to go on group camping trips, a Watchtower study reminding us of the nearness of the worlds destruction, was a required activity. It's no wonder so many JW's deal with anxiety. Mine all but dissapeared overnight once I stopped going.
It does take time to develop a lifestyle that fills in the void left after discontinuing something that took up so much time and was the center of your life for a long period. Working unnecessary overtime can prolong the development of needed strengths by avoiding having to deal with the feelings/fears one used to mask by attending meetings.