GGG...I don't have any great advice to pass along. But I can offer you are not alone in feeling stuck in a moment. I've pretty much shed all my JW indoctrination, been completely out for years, remarried to a great woman.....but....still feel like I'm not fully living my life yet. I call it the magic-carpet-ride-to-paradise mindset. Waiting for something that's not coming.
Guess I'm not as unshackled as my username suggests. Hang in there...and congrats on being cancer-free. What a victory.