i remember--back in 1971---we had moved to the isle of wight. i knew i was totally finished as a jw. i was out one sunday morning --with my wife & a few others --on "the work" (yuk phrase )--as we were walking over a river bridge--i sent my briefcase spinning through the air into the water---i felt an overwhelming relief.
i admit i still dithered on-and-off for a few years--purely to appease her ladyship. wifes sometimes hold the ace card in a marriage. young husbands will do a lot worse than attend the occasional jw meeting if the right bribe is offered.