Right now it is 5:41am here in Milwaukee, I cannot sleep and it is utter torture. UGH!
I have to be at work at 3pm today, and I cannot sleep. Slept all day, and finally woke up at 5 o'clock and started cleaning apartment. Work up at 10:00am but went back to sleep. Cleaned a good portion of my apartment but still got a lot more to go. Well, gonna start my story out like this: Everyone knows my life story, I think I posted it on here, never got baptised, but went to the kingdumb hell on a regular basis until I was 27 (I am 29 now). Everything about the kingdom hall influenced my life; now I am trying to look at the world without being influenced by the watchtower. This sister (she's in her late 50's) that used to study with me, still stops by trying to give me watchtowers and awakes. I accept but I do not read them. I thought about telling her no to her face but I do not want to offend her. She might break down crying. She is a very loyal and brainwashed JW's and she's been a pioneer for years (I'm talking since the 70's). Years. She was so sweet to me when she studied with me. Treated me like a kid even though I was a grown ass woman and should have been conducting my own studies. (HAHAHA). She stopped by my house last week Friday and gave me a watchtower and awake, December 2012. I was looking at both of the magazines and couldnt help but to think: WE ARE ACTUALLY IN 2012. ILL BE 30 NEXT YEAR. MY PARENTS ARE NOW GRANDPARENTS. THE NEST IS EMPTY. BOTH OF MY BROTHERS HAVE MOVED ON WITH THEIR LIVES AND HAVE THEIR OWN PLACES. I would have thought the world was gonna be destroyed by now (as a kid, thinking back to 1988 and beyond).
Well, basically this older witness stop by my house and I do not have the heart to tell her no to her face. So I decided I'm going to write a letter and basically tell her that I have NO INTREST in going back to the KH. Ever. There is not one thing in the world that will make me go back. The main reason why I stopped going was because of the child abuse and child mantipulation, blood tranfusion issue, generation and overall doctrine changes, etc. But I'm not gonna mention this specific-wise in the letter, gonna be as indirect as possible while being direct at the same time. I've learned that there is a certain way that you have talk to j-dubs. You can't give them the raw facts, they'll think that your satan; you can't be too offensive, but at the same time, you have to be CLEAR ON THINGS. If I keep letting her come by and drop off magazines, I'm saying that esstentially: the watchtower is okay, the religion is okay, and IT IS NOT OKAY!!!!! The watchtower is a harmful corporation that has harmed thousands upon thousands of lives, and I will let her know that I do not agree with the corporation and/or organizational policies. I'm also writing a letter to my parent' s congo letting them know that I do not like the way my parents are being treated in their congregation.
Besides that, my mom texted me tonight and tell me that the girl that was working for her (my mom works from home) is talking to a 21 year old man and she is seventeen!!! My mom talked to the elders about it tonight. Theres a little bit of drama in my mom's congo about this, and everyone is saying that my mom shoulda went to her mom, FIRST!!!
Does anyone have any pointers as to what I should say in the letter to sister old pioneer???
