no matter how hard i try to live my life according to God he will never forgive me and i suffer the consequences by being destroyed or eternal hell fire.
06 .................... sweetheart, spiritually speaking there is no unforgiveable sin! It is all made up to control & extort! Don't fall for it anymore. You are FREE.............if you want to be free. There is no Armageddon .......all made up.! You don't need a sky-daddy to forgive anything!
From this day forward, see yourself as a good, caring person. Live your life without looking over your shoulder for an invisible killer ......he doesn't exist. If there were a god of love he wouldn't be making you feel so scared. Learn to love yourself and stand up for your natural rights for a decent life.
clarity