thats the problem... i dont know why i care :( i dont want to care!!!!!!
Posts by bez
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22IM SOOO ANGRY!!!!!!!
by bez ini have not posted for a while and have actually not been on for a while but i have had to post cus i am just livid!!!.
me and my husband and 2 children stopped going nearly a year ago after numerous issues, and basic doubts.
while we were in the cong i had an 'incident' with a brother who claimed to love me and wanted to leave his wife for me.
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IM SOOO ANGRY!!!!!!!
by bez ini have not posted for a while and have actually not been on for a while but i have had to post cus i am just livid!!!.
me and my husband and 2 children stopped going nearly a year ago after numerous issues, and basic doubts.
while we were in the cong i had an 'incident' with a brother who claimed to love me and wanted to leave his wife for me.
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bez
I have not posted for a while and have actually not been on for a while but i have had to post cus i am just LIVID!!!
Me and my husband and 2 children stopped going nearly a year ago after numerous issues, and basic doubts. While we were in the cong i had an 'incident' with a brother who claimed to love me and wanted to leave his wife for me. I really did not know how to cope with the flattery! I had just had a baby and enjoyed the compliments but knew i loved my husband and would not leave him. The so called BROTHER said to me one day we had to make a choice as otherwise we would end up sleeping together. I said NO! I would not do that to my husband and would always end a marriage before cheating. Basically he went home told his wife he was leaving her and waiting for me to leave my husband. This was all just after having a couple of weeks of chatting together over the internet and a few phone calls. I was basically wanting a shoulder to cry on over my silly marital issues and he confided in me about his wifes infidelity that happened not long into their marriage. THATS IT! Tho wrong i know that, that is all it was. He made it bad by making the biggest deal out of something that could have just disappeared. Still i am greatful cus events from that time have led us to leave the joke that is the JEHOVAHS WITNESSES! He stayed with his wife and moved on and out of town. After the heartache that their whole family and close 'friends' gave me and my family for actually nothing was immence.
Obviously my poor husband had alot to cope with too. The wife of said 'brother' was disgraceful to my husband calling him gay and a walkover and everything. She was known to be a gossip and a trouble causer, and tried to make alot more of a situation than it deserved. But one for a good gossip and a good drama , im sure she actually enjoyed every minite. She would spread lies about me. And even spread lies about my husband... even going to the extent of telling folk he was actually gay!
I am in no way excusing my discussions with her husband but her actions after were absolutly terrible. I really did not know what had happened, and since being in the big bad 'world' i have realised that actually we suffered unneccissarily. We had countless 'elders' visits to point out wrongdoing. THe final straw was an elders visit to slap my hand for going out one night into the local town and bumping into said husbands wife's brother and telling him exactly what i thought of his sister (probably wrong in hinesight, but after the crap that she put me and my family through it was hard to keep my mouth shut). That is when me and my husband decided to walk away. Rather than coming to encourage, they had come to lecture at how wrong it was to first be out in the town late on a night and second speak of a 'sister' this way to her brother. HA!
The reason now i am so angry..tho said discussions took place between me and said brother TWO years ago, is because my name is tarnished in the witness community! WHY? i love my husband, i love my kids. A friend of mine who was a witness has too left in the last couple of months and her mother text me to say she hoped i was satisfied now i had taken her daughter from the 'truth'. She believed that i had talked negatively of it which had led her out (which is untrue. she had doubts like me for years, but i left first). She said she now felt sorry for the family that were left in the truth (despite im actually sure being the devils children) because they are the family that are left in the 'truth' and we have walked away. She said she worried i would try to take my friends husband!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW DARE SHE!!!!!!!!! And all this she discussed with her daughter... who i may add was disfellowshipped for having sex with a few boys before she was married, but is not a fine upstanding pioneer.
Maybe too much information.. but i have had ONE man in my entire life... MY HUSBAND! I never wanted anyone else and was mearly flatterd by the attention after having marital difficulties myself and also dealing with doubts about something i had been part of my whole life.
After not replying to my friends text initially she kept forcing me to talk to her. She even text my mum and said something along the lines of the fact that she must be blind if she can not see that i am basically the devil in disguise! She kept texting me to say that she wanted me to defend myself for takin her daughter from 'jehovah' and that i was obviously guilty and knew i was cus i would not reply to her texts. I did eventually snap and go round to her house to defend myself which is when she said all of this horrible stuff about what type of a person and woman i was and what i was capable of with regards to her daughters husband.
After stewing about the whole situation i text my friends mother last night to say how i was disgusted of the things she had said and that as one of jehovahs witenesses you are taught not to judge and yet she had outrightly judged me on how she percieved me. It was a very long text about how disgusted both me and my husband were, and how disgusted we were that she brought up OUR marital issue from 2 years ago that was nothing to do with her. I have not had ONE text back. No apology, NO nothing!!!!!!!!! so after all the horrible texts she had sent to me and the decency i had to sit with her and discuss her issues in her house, she has not replied to mine!!! IM SO FUMING!!!!! Basically it boils down to the fact that they are all so stuck up their self righteous arses, that they cannot actually see that anyone else may be right and they are wrong. WHAT happened to HUMILITY?!!!!!!
Sorry for the long rant, and i only hope it makes sense. I just felt i had to get all of this off my chest.
I never thought i would actually say i really disliked the witnesses. but the longer both me and my husband are away from it the easier it is to see how corrupt it all is and the easier it is to say I REALLY DISLIKE the stupid organisation.... despite the pair of us being brought up in the mess! And now i see my poor friend dealing with all the pain from making her own choice in life. Her mother crying every day and telling her she is going to die along with her children at armageddon. I believe she obviously genuinly believes all that shit but how terrible is it for an organisation of imperfect men, and one full more so than ever of corrupt people to make people feel this way, and whats more, feel they have the right to condemn people to death along with their kids!!!!!!!!
I hate the self-righteous 'we are right and you are wrong an we will therefore ignore you now but speak with you on our own terms' attitudes!!!! ARHHHHH!!! must calm down... anyone know of any medication you can take to give you that 'i dont give a shit how you feel about me' feeling!???!!!
Sorry to harp on ... BEZ x
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current JW tagged in pictures in Xmas and Birthday parties on FB
by James_Slash inhad to laugh when i saw this.. a current jw who i know on fb was tagged in photos showing him at a christmas party a few days ago.
within minutes of them landing he removed the tags because obviously these would have been seen by other jw's on his page.. when i asked him why he'd removed them he said: "i was off work sick and i didn't want my colleagues seeing me on the razzle".
lol.
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bez
HYPOCRITES!
I remember being SLATED 2 years ago for being out in the 'worldly' town 2 years ago the wkend before xmas... today i bump into someone who told me she saw loads of bro's and sisters out last night in the 'worldly' town, this including a brother who has recently attended ministerial training school!!! Cool next generation of dubs eh!
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serving elders?
by bez injust wondering if there are any actual servin elders on this site?
who are living a double life for whatever reason?.
i ask cus i still cant understand how the new elders manuel that i see clips of everywhere has been leaked?.
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bez
so bro johnson is an undercover elder then?
I have no prob wi present elders on here... quite the opposite, i feel sorry for them...and wonder just how many really feel the need to come on here!!
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serving elders?
by bez injust wondering if there are any actual servin elders on this site?
who are living a double life for whatever reason?.
i ask cus i still cant understand how the new elders manuel that i see clips of everywhere has been leaked?.
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bez
Just wondering if there are any actual servin elders on this site? Who are living a double life for whatever reason?
I ask cus i still cant understand how the new elders manuel that i see clips of everywhere has been leaked?
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My Story
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bez
Hi KP, so sorry about your story... :( you will find support here
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window cleaner?
by bez inerrh, i have lost my jw window cleaners?
they have not been back since i guess all the 'apostate' rumours.. .
anyone wanna come clean my windows?
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bez
lol!!! ITS MENTAL!
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window cleaner?
by bez inerrh, i have lost my jw window cleaners?
they have not been back since i guess all the 'apostate' rumours.. .
anyone wanna come clean my windows?
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bez
errh, i have lost my JW window cleaners? they have not been back since i guess all the 'apostate' rumours.
Anyone wanna come clean my windows? i pay ya a tenner?
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how to tell elders we dont wana go anymore leave us alone,
by serein instoped goin over a year ago now, been bugged ever since,iv just sent em away with im ill to tierd goin out what ever excuse i could think of to get em off my back,.
im a big wimp so is my husband, every time the elder turns up we go yer yer come next week what ever and wel sort sumat out.
which we dont mean its our brain washed mind talking and its very weak,.
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bez
youve nothing to lose. i would just tell them you are ok at mo like blondie said and leave it at that. Since all the hassle we had, we have heard nothing. few wks gone by too. so just tell them your best left.
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Not surprisingly, the rumor mill has started...
by SweetBabyCheezits inmy wife and i have not even been df'd for a week and an old friend on fb (an inactive jw who has active jw friends who used to be friends of mine) says there's a rumor going around that i'm gay.
wow.
really jws?
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bez
We are just having the usual 'apostate' name tagged on us which keeps everyone away from us like we have some sort of contagious disease... yet looks like they are all happy to try to nosey into our lives in whatever means possible!!!
I remember hearing of an ex bro an sis in the area we live, i didnt even know them personally but it was being branded about that they were 'apostates' and that the wife had 'tempted' the husband out of it like eve had 'tempted' adam with the apple! Sadly i remember being intrigued myself by these 'raging apostates' and found myself listening in on conversations about them! omg , what a sad life i had!
Now i am sure the same conversations are taking place about us and no one has anything better to do other that listen in and continue to spread the lies like chinese whispers!!