I was DF'd 12 or so years ago (2 years after my sister disassociated herself because my step-father, an elder, molested her when we were young - which I found out about just a few years ago), and because of the mind-control mechanisms they put in place 8 years before that, I worked to "come back". I didn't stop my "sin" (smoking pot) - in fact, while I was out I continued to smoke and even took LSD. Fourteen months after the ousting, I was "welcomed back as the prodigal son". Two months later I quit going to the meetings.
The "straw" was when I found out of the abuse. That man looked DOWN on ME as if I was rolling joints out of the Bible pages. This coming from an ex-con, lying, two-faced molester.
So I have had 0 contact with JWs until I found this board.... a couple weeks ago. Lots of feelings came up. And thoughts. Some involving a chainsaw, can of gasoline, and some rubber tubing. Then I remembered: I'm not them. I'm not deceived any longer. So I wrote my little apostasy letter to the Grandstanding Bastards.
I no longer feel the need to self-medicate. Drug-free in every sense of the word. Especially free from the opiate of religion (tip of the hat to Karl Marx.)