Posts by 1Robinella

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I Miss Field Service!

by believingxjw in

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yep, i miss those good old field service days but now i'm not allowed to join in the house to house work.

so i've decided to do what i was taught to do instead; letter writing.. i'm going to take the money i once contributed to the kingdom hall and buy stamps with it.

then i'll give a good witness to many in my area or in my state or across the country.

1Robinella

When I was forced to work out in service with some extra zealous annoying sister. I used to pretend to ring the door bell. I never had to talk. he-he

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My JW mothers opinion of disfellowshiped people!

by LucyA in

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so a little background i am not dissfellowshiped and my sister stayed in for awhile though so she's treated like she is!.

this is the most disturbing conversation i have ever had with my mother and for the first time i see clearly how deep the control on my mothers mind is!.

I can believe it. Paedophile should not even be in the same sentence. I don't care if my child was straight,gay,green,blue or polka dotted, I'd still love them like the day they were born. Unfortunately, that type of thinking is like a bad disease..it's spread all over. My mom has it bad too. Your not alone LucyA.

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can we talk "public apostacy" for a moment?

by chickpea in

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friends

how public have you been as an apostate in your community, where your activities.

that are decidedly contrary to the bleatings of the b0rg and publicized?.

i am about to commit a humdinger of a display of worldliness, with potential for.

1Robinella

Regional news coverage...Please don't do anything stupid like hurting yourself or someone else..Please do not commit any crimes.

Lady Lee your hilarious. You really crack me up One time, I wore a blonde wig and went into the K.H. at my old hall and wore glasses and sat through 1/2 the meeting. I sat near the restrooms and waited/watched and made sure no one was in the mens restroom until it was time to stretch the ol' legs and I got up and went to the mens bathroom and dropped off playboy magazines and used scotch tape to put some over the urinals. lol. I also put some playgirl stuff in the womens. It was hecka hard not to be loud and laugh through it. It was just pure fun.

For me, as soon as I realized how much JW are a joke I bought a christmas tree. lol. I tried smoking, also yuckie idea. Tried some other stuff too (my secret). lol. Me and my man went out bar hopping and party it all up. I lost weight and dressed like a slut. lol. It was fun. Las Vegas stuff and just living life. I voted that was cool.

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witness friends

by man in black in

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friends

i was cleaning out my basement this afternoon and while looking thru a box of old pictures/cards i ran across this letter.

from a once close jw associate :.

dear man in black,.

1Robinella

It's sad to say but I understand. Although I have not gone through what you have my story is a along the same lines. Sadly my sister was murdered in 95'. Obviously, it's incrediable story still haunts me and I think of her on a daily basis. At that time no one knew what happened, no details were released to the family and basically the police were following every single family member (I've learned that it's somewhat normal for police to do that when they are working on a new case). Because no one knew the details yet, to say I was freeked out was a major understatement. It was extremely tramatic and emotionally exhausting situation. I couldn't function normally, I was always looking over my shoulder and when I was alone, I was scared the same would happen to me. It was a little comforting to know police were nearby but also very, very strange. Because of the family mess I had missed several meetings and when I did go I felt like I was in a coma, I felt guilty I wasn't with my family instead. Anyway, before I keep blabbing on and on about it. On several occasions I visited the elders and so-called-friends-sisters for some sort of support. I asked for the elders to come see me and my husband and I was emotionally wrecked. After the second or third visit from them they told me: "Like we said before, we have never delt with this type of situation before in the congregation and have no idea what to do for you. Your just going to have to force yourself to the meetings and get over it, move on. If you do not come then we cannot help you." I looked at them and said: "Your the elders your supposed to understand and just let us know that you are here for us. Your not supposed to put these type of conditions on us at this tramatic time in our life. What do you mean move on get over it? That was my sister, I'm still grieving." They basically wished us well and left. Yikes! Not only was my sister gone, the elders and my congregation "friends" gone too. Did we feel abandoned or what. To me, it was hypocritical and hurtful. I'm no longer angry with them, it just made me realize how much they are not trained to help people. Be strong my friend. I understand, over the years, I have come across notes from people that turned away from me and my spouse. It sucks but I am a better person today for it.

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angry texts from angry relatives

by In in

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friends

i want to be disfellowshipped now so they'll stop talking to me!!

!.

1Robinella

I'm not sure what's going on in your situation but for my situation, in my opinion, texting is easy and convenient but it also encourages misunderstandings (because the tone is missing), it's also a way for people with no balls to say something that maybe they would never say to the person's face. I suppose you could call them cowards. lol. This is something a family member did to me over a three month period. So instead of encouraging possible misunderstandings send what I sent to them: "Bcause I want mellow, no drama & no mis-understandings I will no longer respond to text msgs. Any1 needs 2 get ahold of me pls call me. Texting is impersonal:)"

End the text with a smile. Hope it works. So far, in my case, I haven't received 1 single text from the instigators. lol. I am sorry that they are doing this, hope this helps. You have friends here.

peace

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Psychic feelings anyone?

by 1Robinella in

i'm not sure what kind of response i will get from everyone, but i have to ask.

is their someone out their that was also raised a jw but grew up with "psychic feelings?

" from the youngest age i can remember having feelings of things or just knowing.

1Robinella

Hum..very interesting reading. Very often the events of our lives are orchestrated in such a way that it is difficult to miss the lesson. At other times, we are unable, as hard as we try, to understand why a situation has come our way. What we experience as fate, luck, or societal limitations are often circumstances that have been set in motion by a combination of factors, including our thoughts and beliefs, our creative ability, our soul purpose, and our karma. By paying attention to the small coincidences of our daily lives and by noticing the many messages sent to us to help us succeed, we can become conscious of what our soul has come here to learn, and we can contribute to our own learning. The choices and decisions we make each day impact how our future unfolds. When we learn to work in unison with the higher energies, we experience less confusion and more harmony.

BabaYaga:" I have often wondered where or who or what I would be if I had been encouraged and told it was a gift instead of being told it was "the demons."

Broken Promises:" I had some inkling towards being psychic but as a good JW I pushed those feelings/experiences away."

I totally understand. For me, developing intuitive and physical abilities can also at times feel like a leap into the unknown. It may be hard to believe that we have within us the ability to access information or connect to and communicate with the nonphysical. It is also a journey that ignites within us a passion for discovery and relelation. I also have wondered for many, many years why we were taught that such things were the demons speaking. That does not sound like reasonable thinking. The fact that my mother's own fear mixed with JW teachings instilled fear into me. This is something I am working through. Please do not misunderstand me, I believe that their is good and evil people living on the earth and I also believe once passed away these same people mimic the way they lived. If they were a good person, then it's possible they may be a good spirit, but if they passed away as a bad person or angry then it's possible they are a bad spirit. Although I am not new to these type of experiences it's still a learning/understanding of myself as a person and it's nice to know that other JW or ex-JW's have also experienced some type of psychic feelings even though we may not fully understand everything shown or given to us, to me, it's a privilege.

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Psychic feelings anyone?

by 1Robinella in

i'm not sure what kind of response i will get from everyone, but i have to ask.

is their someone out their that was also raised a jw but grew up with "psychic feelings?

" from the youngest age i can remember having feelings of things or just knowing.

1Robinella

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Psychic feelings anyone?

by 1Robinella in

i'm not sure what kind of response i will get from everyone, but i have to ask.

is their someone out their that was also raised a jw but grew up with "psychic feelings?

" from the youngest age i can remember having feelings of things or just knowing.

1Robinella

I don't take offence to any "psychiatrist" suggestions. I believe it's a normal queston to ask. I understand it's hard for people that have never experienced anything psychic themselves to fully understand what I've actually experienced. But if your wondering, when I was in my 20's I made appointment with a couple of different psychiatrists just to get professional opinions. (Like peace of mind). They came back pretty much what I already knew. Artist, empathic but normal. Yes I do take this as a gift and not a hinderence. "...it gets kind of 'spooky' how often I get things right without knowing beforehand."So true. One day at work, I wasn't feeling very social and I was focused on working. Then all of a sudden I had this intense feeling to stop what I was doing, go downstairs and see my girlfriend that works in a different department and talk to her. I ignored it, but it was "nagging at me" so-to-speak. So I listened and I didn't know what to tell her so I just sat down and caught my breath. I decided to let her talk about whatever she wanted and maybe whatever I was supposed to tell her would come to me. I was kind of waiting for a sign, in a way. My friend had said "I was supposed to be gone by now but for some reason I knew I had to stay for something." (We are good enough friends that she knows my gift). She asked "I know you have something to tell me." We laughed. I walked her out to her car and then I got this message.."older african woman..skinny..your family used to make fun of her because everyone in the family is heavy, except for her. She could eat anything and not gain a pound..she's like your aunt or someone you respected but passed away many years ago...she lived in Georgia, possibly New Orleans somewhere in the South...she never had children...never married..she used to play cards, Tarot cards and call her family with the predictions..she used to use the cards in her kitchen on a green square table.

My girlfriend turned white. She said "How did you know?" I told her that "She wants me to tell you that she loves you and that she still looks out for you." That was the message. My friend could not believe that I would have known about the color of the table and that the family made fun of her (in a loving way). The fact that she lived in Georgia and played cards.

This is a perfect example that I do not understand why I get these messages but when I do I just go with the flow of things.

"...Just saying that this stuff has always been w us humans."

LadyLee & Loshasleft thank you.

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Psychic feelings anyone?

by 1Robinella in

i'm not sure what kind of response i will get from everyone, but i have to ask.

is their someone out their that was also raised a jw but grew up with "psychic feelings?

" from the youngest age i can remember having feelings of things or just knowing.

1Robinella

Although growing up in a fairly happy home whenever I was home alone, sometimes unexplainable things would occur. Once my parents were in Mexico and my older brother was staying in the house with me, he left to pick up dinner for us and I stayed behind. I was laying on my bed relaxing and I heard my parents speaking in the family room. I sat up to listen and they continued speaking but I knew they were in another country. I could definately hear both parents distintive voices. I even walked to the doorway of my bedroom and looked out the hallway to listen and it stopped.

When my father died when I was 13 I was laying in bed facing the wall and behind me I heard my name called out, in my father's voice. It wasn't a scary voice, just his normal voice. But It freeked me out because all these years my mother would tell me it's my imagination or it's not true. So I had no one to talk to about all my occurances. Then one night after the bible study my mother would have in the home we went to bed and I remember laying in bed, not able to sleep. Then I heard a noise in the kitchen it sounded like someone moving the metal blinds coming in through the window. I sat up, worried that someone was breaking in. I pinched my arm to make sure that I was really awake (did this like 4 times). I could hear every movement. It sounded like someone jumped from the window to the counter then jump down to the floor. But they stayed in that general area. After pinching my self several more times I wondered what to do next. I ran to my mom's closed bedroom door and went in and closed it behind me asking my mom to call the police. The police came and searched the entire house. Nothing was moved and my mom apologized to the policeman saying "My daughter was dreaming, maybe it was a mouse."

How was I dreaming when I pinched myself and stood at my doorway and could still hear these sounds?? So you see these two events I still remember till this day.

Once at work, I was opening up, no one was their and I walked to my desk and the strong scent of pefume of my deceased sister was their....

Once at another job a co-worker had passed away a few weeks before and I was walking down a hallway and a friend of mine came around the far corner walking towards me, I looked up at her, stared at her hard and kept walking then I turned around to look at her again and she said two times "Are you okay? You look like you seen a ghost." I said "I saw you but it wasn't you. I thought you were someone else but I knew it couldn't be true." She said "Did you see Karen?" I said Yes!

I get these kind of things often. This is just the tip of the ice berg. Your quotes are so true.

I did not seek out or encourage these moments they would just come upon me out of the blue.

I don't try to explain it. It just is.

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Psychic feelings anyone?

by 1Robinella in

i'm not sure what kind of response i will get from everyone, but i have to ask.

is their someone out their that was also raised a jw but grew up with "psychic feelings?

" from the youngest age i can remember having feelings of things or just knowing.

1Robinella

I'm not sure what kind of response I will get from everyone, but I have to ask. Is their someone out their that was also raised a JW but grew up with "psychic feelings?" From the youngest age I can remember having feelings of things or just knowing. After much research I believe it's true that everyone can be somewhat psychic it just depends how much in tune they are and how they use it. Most people push it away while others see it, recognize it and use it. For me, my father was a MS and sensitive person as well. Both grandmothers, my sister, neices, aunts and myself included. For me, I've had many, many wonderful experiences and because I was brought up a JW the teachings they give is always fear based when it's on such topics like: "All of it is demonic." etc...which puts fear into everyone. I am working through that fear and need to progress. I was just wondering if anyone else on this site is like me. If your wondering, I'm a healthy, active woman. I'm not on any meds, had a normal child life, not abused in anyway, have a great marriage and generally a happy person.

I welcome comments please.