Hey there Reborn2002,
Well mate, it seems we have been in the same boat. It's just your turn to row!!
I'm the same, 3rd gen JW, felt I had all the expectations of my family upon my shoulders.
Trust, well that's is sure a tough one. I was like that, and I still am. There are walls upon walls, so that some people get thru to a certain point and then that's it, no further.
I lost all my friends.
But I tell you one thing, when people are around me, they are comfortable, there's no bad vibes. So I have a lot of mates, but not friends.
I reckon it takes time, you're a "freshie" so it will take a while to adjust to being oh so popular one minute and scum of the earth the next.
This is a good place, with good people who have been down the same path as all of us.