Not having to pay for a hotel room when you travel.
No fear of hell (I live in a catholic country, so i was one of the few lucky).
Developing the ability to read through boring stuff.
ele_lux
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Name Something Good About Being A Jehovah's Witness
by minimus ini've got one!.
you don't have to wait in long xmas lines at the store to buy xmas presents.
as a matter of fact, you don't have to buy a damn thing!.
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Secret Santa wish list :)
by tec inokay, so this is the thread where everyone who has signed up for secret santa can tell the rest of us what you like.
colors, hobbies, trinkets, etc :) keep in mind that the limit is 15.00, or 10 pounds.. have fun,.
tammy.
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ele_lux
OOoo well, I love books as well, especially novels. And if they're used, all the better :)
I'm also crazy about plastic oversized rings and anything one can write on or with.
Favorite colors are lime-green and red :)
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The CO just called :S
by ele_lux inaaaaggghhhh!!!
it's the co's visit this week at "my" hall.
i've been dreading this week and now the nightmare is starting to unfold :s the co just called wanting to know how i'm doing.
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ele_lux
Thank you all for your comments and ideas, but something big just happened... My dad sent me and my brother a letter, and I don't even wanna talk about what he said because my chest literally hurts from crying so much.....
Most fortunately, he decided to come by and explain himself and apologize for being so emotional and blunt. The letter was along the lines of "How can you do this to us, when we love you so much?" But his visit was more about "No matter what you do, we are always your parents and we will never stop showing our love for you." "Please tell us what exactly your religious status is." and "Deal with your elders yourselves, we can't keep covering up for you anymore". So in the end my brother and I had to agree that we have awesome parents, morally way beyond any by-the-book witness.
Of course there was the omnipresent hint of "We are still hoping you come to your senses and embrace the Truth again", but he never explicitly said it, which is good. And we'd rather have them feel that way for their own sake, and well, to be quite honest, who knows? I never thought I'd stop being a Witness and yet here I am, so I learned not to be so sure about anything, so matter how absolutely convinced I am right now.
As for the meeting with the CO, he said he'd handle that one. So I'm off the hook, but I gotta start planning my "fader"-friendly explanation to the elders...
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The CO just called :S
by ele_lux inaaaaggghhhh!!!
it's the co's visit this week at "my" hall.
i've been dreading this week and now the nightmare is starting to unfold :s the co just called wanting to know how i'm doing.
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ele_lux
that screams FAKE LOVE doesn't it????? it's depressing really.....
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The offical Screaming thread for those 'still in' or with family 'still in'
by pirata inaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
that feels better.
thanks all for listening to things that i cannot say to my family or 'friends', the very people that i should be able to talk about anything about, without fear of being labelled as an apostate and shunned like an amharet..
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ele_lux
pirata, you're right, it's not my fault, it's just frustrating knowing in their minds, it IS my fault....
Nice_Dream, that true. it's my right. But i'm sure you too wish there was a way to make them understand.... I want to celebrate christmas too :'(
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The CO just called :S
by ele_lux inaaaaggghhhh!!!
it's the co's visit this week at "my" hall.
i've been dreading this week and now the nightmare is starting to unfold :s the co just called wanting to know how i'm doing.
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Aaaaggghhhh!!! It's the CO's visit this week at "my" hall. I've been dreading this week and now the nightmare is starting to unfold :S The CO just called wanting to know how i'm doing. My parents, who are in the same hall as me (i haven't been attending for a little over a month now) tell me how much the elders worry about me and how much the brothers miss me, but nobody has really tried to contact me in person. But you know CO's.... they're a different story....
So even though I asured him I'm doing well and the psychiatrist says I'm doing a lot better, he said he wants to meet with the family and see how he can help us stay strong and work on setting spiritual goals. I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO HIM!!!! The biggest problem is they are really nice people and we've always had a good relationship. He gave my dad study and is still giving him study I think even though my dad is baptized, but I think he didn't finish the God's love book or something.... So I don't wanna be rude, but I definitely DON'T wanna talk about my feelings with him because I feel that it will lead to sumething ugly. I'm not ready to DA or be DF'd....
Any ideas on how i can avoid this "shepherding" hell?!?
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The offical Screaming thread for those 'still in' or with family 'still in'
by pirata inaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
that feels better.
thanks all for listening to things that i cannot say to my family or 'friends', the very people that i should be able to talk about anything about, without fear of being labelled as an apostate and shunned like an amharet..
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Running away from WT-induced guilt, I now feel guilty for giving my parents one more reason to suffer.....
I HATE THE WATCHTOWER!!!!!!!!
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2010 CHRISTMAS CARD EXCHANGE
by blondie ini will volunteer to coordinate this.. if you would like a card sent to you or send a card, pm me your mailing address and a name the post office will deliver to.. what do you think the cut off date should be for sending the exchange lists out to everyone?.
do you want it pm'd or e-mailed (if emailed send your email address with your snail mail.. i know that cards going overseas can take longer.. .
blondie.
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ele_lux
I'm excited about this :). It's my first "christmas celebration" ever. I hope next year I can put up a christmas tree and all :)
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Please share a quote that you enjoy...
by nvrgnbk innothing contributes so much to tranquilize the mind as a steady purpose--.
a point on which the soul may fix its intellectual eye.. mary shelley.
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ele_lux
“I fear one day I'll meet God, he'll sneeze and I won't know what to say.”
Ronnie Shakes
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Cognitive dissonance... help!
by ele_lux insomething strange (maybe not) is happening to me.
when i come here, or get online and find proof that jehovah's witnesses are not "the truth", or when i talk to my brother and really think stuff through, i'm absolutely convinced that i'm doing the right thing by leaving before i get older and waste more of my life.. but when i'm tired or scared or in some other way not fully active in thought, i still feel guilty and fearful that armageddon will come and i'll regret this.. i had expected that the moment i consciously and in use of reason convinced my self that this wasn't the truth, i'd be mentally free from it.
but i still feel its grip on the back of my mind.. what can i do to get rid of that dissonance (or whatever it's called)?.
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ele_lux
All of your comments have really eased my mind. Thx everyone :)
And mmxiv, that is so great. I'm seriously thinking of moving to another country.....