Hi Maze,
If the watchtower policies would allow JW to discuss doubts and alternative ideas freely amongst themselves, this board and many others would not exist. I am a born-in, my wife and I take care of my mother-in-law, who sits in a wheel chair, and my entire extended family are all "strong JW". I cannot leave without losing my family as well, and I am not ready for that, and I might never be. Who is going to take care of my MIL? The JW consider going from door-to-door way more important than caring for their fellows in the faith. Furthermore I don't think it would be very loving towards all these nice people to shock them by quitting. Even when there is a high price to pay in time and energy, and I have to weigh carefully every word I say, it is well worth it. Every day my wife and I continue this path undetected, it is a further proof, God has not much to do with the organization, governing body, etc. If God is involved at all with JW, then it is only on a very selective individual basis, the 'good' guys, if you want. There are not too many of those in the congregations I was part of. This board is the only place where I can share my thoughts and off-load my burdens, because only here, people understand what it's like. I am not an apostate, I am a victim, trapped in an organized structure that is becoming more un-christian every day. If you know an easy way out, please give us some help in finding it. If you can't help us, keep your labels like 'apostate' to yourselves. Your lack of empathy is quite evident. But JW are not unique in this respect, some born-again-christians display the same regretful attitude. What can I say, Jesus died for everybody, there is still some hope left. Have a nice day.
Hoffnung