the reasons why people leave the organization is usually a combination of things. it is very shallow to always put the blame on those who leave and never question yourselves. Ultimately it will lead to the moral implosion of the organization. Although I did not understand back then the volume of lies I was thought by the organization, the moment when I realized that my doubts were well founded, i questioned myself and my motives, and gave ample time for the organization to convince me i was wrong, which you could label murmuring phase. However it did the exact opposite, it proclaimed theories like "overlapping generations", etc, which demonstrated in what kind of darkness they are. Never ever did I discredit the hard work of the elders, or higher official, i just realized they were applying the wrong instructions. I pondered a long time if it would be the right thing to leave, and looking now back on it, yes it is. Since there is no possibility to honestly explain to the friends the valid reasons why the organization is not having the truth, showing it by leaving an empty seat in the hall is the best one can do. I can now see, whereas inside the organization I was blind. Since those inside do not know what it means to be able to see, the only standard reaction is to call the ones who are learning to see "murmurers", instead of asking yourselves what there is to see.