I am so sorry to hear this happened to you.
I am also sorry to tell you that I am not hopeful for this relationship.
When we women love a man, or even "think" we could love a man, we hold him close and as tight as we can. We make room for him in our lives and put him first. Holidays and his birthday are opportunities for us to show you how much we love you. They are a big deal.
Dont listen to what she says, it is how she acts that show her true feelings. Isn't that true with you men also?
Stop drinking, as that may be the problem. Women don't want a man who is a problem drinker. We want to be first in your life.
There is a gal out there for you...now go find her. Stop feeling sorry for yourself. Look where women are, at the mall, the library, the grocery store.
Best wishes for you and please let us know how you are doing.