Malachi welcome.
Like you I was in for 50+ years and after being out for almost 6 years I came to the realization that I was a JW because that is all I knew. I did it all to please my parents and was taught to listen and obey. Today I no longer believe in anything that requires having faith including God or an afterlife. I am much more at peace with the certainty that I am growing old and will die than having to follow a religion that cannot guarantee salvation.