It's been a mix of many things.
It cost me my marriage. Whereas, I have no feelings for the re-married to a jobo ex, I still feel deeply betrayed and can see the effect it has had on the family.
I'm free but feeling rather aimless. After all, I was born in with nothing to replace the false high that 'religion' gave me.
I find people a bloody annoyance, if I'm honest.
guess I am now very cynical and joyless.
But, hey ho. what's the answer? Not a lot!