thanks for pointing that all out to me Newchapter you are very helpful! and its been 3 months of me being a mormon that i decided that im not sure if i wanted to be a mormon. and yes i have considered therapy but i just dont see how that will help it will just be me throwing more of my money away and them putting me on pills doctors already say im bi polar and wanted to prescribe me to pills so how is therapy honestly going to help. I dont know i just wanted to see if anyone else could relate to my story and had some good advice not someone getting on here and saying im crazy but thanks and i will try to look into some of your other suggestions.
deservingone26
JoinedPosts by deservingone26
-
55
Im a mormon
by deservingone26 inim a mormon now and have been one for the last 3 months.
at first i really liked it but now i am starting to have 2nd thoughts, i grew up as a jehovahs witness and was disfellowshiped at 19 i really started to look for a new church in july of this year.
i started out in a christian church which i really liked but i didnt understand the jesus as god thing/trinity.
-
-
-
55
Im a mormon
by deservingone26 inim a mormon now and have been one for the last 3 months.
at first i really liked it but now i am starting to have 2nd thoughts, i grew up as a jehovahs witness and was disfellowshiped at 19 i really started to look for a new church in july of this year.
i started out in a christian church which i really liked but i didnt understand the jesus as god thing/trinity.
-
-
deservingone26
Im a mormon now and have been one for the last 3 months. at first i really liked it but now I am starting to have 2nd thoughts, I grew up as a jehovahs witness and was disfellowshiped at 19 i really started to look for a new church in july of this year. I started out in a christian church which i really liked but i didnt understand the jesus as god thing/trinity. While going to church i started to talk with the missionaries, they showed me the book of mormon and i did their steps of pray before you read it and then ask god if it was true, i really started to get this great feeling and it was a feeling that i would get while going to church but i felt it really strong when i started investigate the church and when reading the BOM so after 4 weeks of meeting with the missionaries just about everyday i got baptized. after i got baptized i really felt the feeling more then ever and for about a month i was confident about my decision but after about a month i started having doubts and really started learning things that i didnt really know before joining. I didnt truly believe in the whole until 1978 blacks couldnt have the priesthood thing but i learned that was true and that joseph smith had lots of wives, i still dont know if that is true. To be honest i really thought the religion was great and was planning on going on a mission in a year from now but while trying to tell others about my religion i find it very hard to testify that joseph smith is a prophet and that he spoke to god and jesus and that has made me take a step back and for the last 2 weeks i have skipped church I dont know what to do anymore. I can say that the last 3 months have been great and i have stopped drinking alcohol and stoped drugs and lost about 35lbs but again i am at this point of not knowing what to do. I dont really want to be a mormon anymore cuse i dont really believe that what they believe is true its sounds really nice though and it answers a lot of questions that people might have as to what are purpose is in life but is it true? and what is this feeling that i am getting? can anyone relate to my story?
-
46
what religion are you now?
by deservingone26 inits been a while since ive been on how is everyone doing?
but just curious after you left jehovahs witnesses did you look into other religions?
or are any of you currently involved in any other religions now?.
-
-
deservingone26
Its been a while since Ive been on how is everyone doing? But just curious after you left jehovahs witnesses did you look into other religions? Or are any of you currently involved in any other religions now?
-
60
Post a You-tube of your Favorite Funny scenes from Movies
by flipper in.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bk0pkyrbml8&feature=related.
-
-
-
10
Jehovahs witnesses the only religion being persecuted
by deservingone26 inso i was talking to one of my jw family members and they have been really trying to get me to come back.
they believe that they are part of the only true religion.
one of the reasons was because of them being the only religion that is being persecuted they claimed and somewhere in texas or some where in the midwest or something a memorial was raided by a group of people and i guess they planned at a football game or something?
-
-
deservingone26
they made an announcement at a football game that they were going to interupt the memorial or something
-
10
Jehovahs witnesses the only religion being persecuted
by deservingone26 inso i was talking to one of my jw family members and they have been really trying to get me to come back.
they believe that they are part of the only true religion.
one of the reasons was because of them being the only religion that is being persecuted they claimed and somewhere in texas or some where in the midwest or something a memorial was raided by a group of people and i guess they planned at a football game or something?
-
-
deservingone26
So i was talking to one of my jw family members and they have been really trying to get me to come back. They believe that they are part of the only true religion. One of the reasons was because of them being the only religion that is being persecuted they claimed and somewhere in texas or some where in the midwest or something a memorial was raided by a group of people and i guess they planned at a football game or something? have u guys heard of a story like this and i guess i shoud do my own research but im sure jehovahs witnesses are not the only religion getting persecuted
-
12
my mind is screwed has anyone ever felt like this?
by deservingone26 inmy mind is screwed.
i am so messed up and there seems to be nothing i can do i can try to be as positive as i want but it always comes right back to this!
right back to me hating myself.
-
-
deservingone26
thanks everyone i write here cuse this is like my counseling when i feel down and out i feel like there has to be some words that can be said to make me feel better for the moment and your words have made me feel better tonight but as you look thru my posts you will see my mind changes often but i do want to get counseling Ive only spoke with a counselor once when I was in the emergency room for having a panic attack, it is nice to vent and air out your feelings and hear others perspectives I really need to work on getting started on this counseling thing i have the money!
-
12
my mind is screwed has anyone ever felt like this?
by deservingone26 inmy mind is screwed.
i am so messed up and there seems to be nothing i can do i can try to be as positive as i want but it always comes right back to this!
right back to me hating myself.
-
-
deservingone26
My mind is screwed. I am so messed up and there seems to be nothing I can do I can try to be as positive as I want but it always comes right back to this! Right back to me hating myself. I dont know what I want I dont feel like I have a place in this world I dont want to be a witness, I dont want to pursue a life of wealth and prosperity. I want nothing I just want happiness but I dont know how to be happy. I want my family but I dont want to go back to the witness world i cant convince myself that it is the truth and how can i witness to others if i dont believe. Im constantly looking for happiness everyday and the only thing that fulfils that for me is food so I spend at least 20 dollars a day at least or more each day on food. All my money goes to quick gratifications. Food, alcohol and sometimes drugs. I have a hard time saving money and I dont want a nice car or house. I have an old car and an old apartment. I have debt out the ying yang cuse I use to like things like nice tvs and laptops and nice clothes but now I dont. My confidence is very low I dont ever get with women because I dont feel like I have nothing to offer. I feel like I am a very boring person. And I feel like others feel the same way! In fact they have told me I am boring plenty of times they have told me I have no personality and I am like that donkey from winnie the pooh. I suck at life! Ive been told that as well. I dont know how to convince myself otherwise. I use to feel like I would get confidence with alcohol but not anymore I just feel stupid and more depereseed. The only thing that make me happy is music and the only talent I somewhat have is the ability to some what sing. I hate being negative but I cant push the negatives thoughts away!
sorry if this doesnt make complete since i am somewhat drunk now
-
-
-
deservingone26
i didnt go, at the last minute i decided not to go, i went to the movies instead, i hate this whole disfellowshipping arrangement im tired of going to the meetings,
-
4
songs you couldnt do without on your ipod/mp3player/cell
by deservingone26 ini know there's a lot of threads out there like this but i am currently trying to build my music library so far i have a pretty good list of songs that i can listen all the way thru but i only have like 60 songs.
so i want to see other peoples songs that they could listen to over and over without getting tired of them.
i want to see if there are any songs that other people really like that i might want to add on to my list.
-
-
deservingone26
I know there's a lot of threads out there like this but I am currently trying to build my music library so far I have a pretty good list of songs that I can listen all the way thru but I only have like 60 songs. So I want to see other peoples songs that they could listen to over and over without getting tired of them. I want to see if there are any songs that other people really like that I might want to add on to my list. I figure this would be a good place to get a variety of different tastes of music. I am open to genres of music.
My two that I could listen to over and over again are Human nature by Michael Jackson and Simple Man by Shinedown. Those two songs I listen to all the time and never get tired of them. Great songs in my opinion! whats yours?