Last year I attended the memorial of an old friend at the hall. I had been inactive for about two years at that time. The only reason I attended was because I like the man and his children. But I never felt comfortable there. Many came up and said "it's so encouraging to see you here, I've missed you" and my reply was standard, "I missed you too, but I haven't moved you know". The older ones are always more gentle at my old hall. Less judgemental.
I'm not going to attend any more memorials. I want to just fade away.