((((((((Plum))))))) You can see from all the replys that people care about you. You need to do what you feel is right for you, but please think about returning after your eyes have been open. It will feel totally different than when you were in the borg before. I personally understand not feeling like you fit any place. I also feel that way many times, but to return to what is not true either doesn't feel right. It takes along time to find our place in this "world." We are what we have been taught and raised. All of us have an insight about life that we would not have had without being in this silly religion. It has made you who you are. A sensitive caring person that is why you feel like returning to feel apart of something. Use that sensitive caring part of you to give to others and than you will not feel so alone. Volunteer, be a good neighbor, enjoy the arts the things that have been denied to you before. Whatever you decide everyone will be behind you. I sure hope you return here just so you can see how much everyone is concerned for you!!!!