Thinking about killing yourself? DONT!!!! God cares, your family cares, and we care about you. I think you should speak with a professional about it. Also, try and get into some outdoor activities and hobbies to keep yourself focused on living life happily. We must love ourselves first.
Pay no mind to the negative comments, some people here don't have the good sense to know when their comments are highly improper at best & at worst, detrimental. Don't get hung up on the negative.