Punk:
It seems a lot of ex-JWs have been set up for failure in the real world and the longer you were "in" the more lasting and detrimental the effects. So many of the threads on this forum prove it.
I like you Punk and I'm concerned about you. Obviously you are bitter for what you feel they have done to you - I know I am for what they did to my sister. But I'm worried your feeling of hoplessness is causing you some depression.
You're writing a book and I assume this is something you're passionate about. Try to concentrate on your passions, get out and go exploring. Keep that nice mind of yours occupied with positive things. don't let what that sick cult did to you determine your self worth or define you. You're way better than that my friend.
If you ever need someone to talk to just PM me.