I second what badfish says...try not to take the loans unless you must take them because you can't make it on the grants.
You don't have to know what you want to do with your life to get the first half of your college done because the first two years are almost all general education. A college counselor at the school will be able to give you a list of many classes for you to choose from that will satisfy some of the general ed requirements. Everyone has to take a little English, some math, some science and so forth before they move on to the classes for their major, so you have lots of time to think about what you want get a degree in before you will have to actually tell them what you want to get a degree in.
So just go down to the community college and talk to someone. Find out how to sign up and when to sign up and what classes you should be taking for your general ed. Then just do it! One foot in front of the other...one step at a time...on to your future! You don't have to have it all planned out to get started.
When I was 18, I got a job and moved out of the house. I tried to go to college and support myself, but it didn't work out for me. I was too young, didn't understand how important college really was, I had to work more than full time to be able to support myself on my tiny wage, and I had no idea why I was going to school.
If I could go back in time I still would have moved out of my parent's home because I couldn't stand living there. But what I would change if I could go back is I would have stayed in school, NO MATTER WHAT. Even taking one little class at a time, I would start and never, ever stop until I had that degree. If I had done that, it would have taken me many years to finish, but I would have finished years and years earlier than I will finish now! (I'm 43 now, still finishing up because I took many many breaks from school). The years are going to go by one way or the other, might as well take classes as they go by!
If you can stand your home situation and maybe slowly warm your parents up to letting you go to college, then I would say stay home as long as possible and GO TO SCHOOL. Living at home could really help you out. It sure would have helped me! But if you have to get out of there, you have to get out of there but STILL go to school, even if it is only a class at a time.
Good luck. Please keep us updated. Let us know if you go down to the college and get some info...
Also, good luck on finding a job. Keep at it. You WILL eventually find a job if you just keep on looking and applying and don't stop looking and applying.
Please don't worry that you are a year out of high school. That is nothing. People go back to school all the time, at all ages. And you are still young enough to get 'the college experience' if you really want to go for it...
*sigh* I wish I could go back to where you are... You have the whole world before you, your whole life to live... lucky you!
Ok, one more thing, find all the support at the college that you can. Join all the groups to support students who are first in their family to go to college, make use of all counseling and advice services. You need extra support since your parents as JWs are 'prolly not going to do what most kid's parents do for them when they go to college...you know, support them in reaching their goals of getting an education and little things like that....So find that support in other adults at the college who can guide you and encourage you.
Ok, that's it. :) I'm done. Really.