Posts by TimothyT

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What a STUPID morning on the ministry!

by TimothyT in

tim here.. ok... so... let me tell you about this morning and the utter stupidity of the brothers!.

just to give you a bit of background info, for those who dont know, i am a gay, 23 year old jw and im seriously heading out of the borg!

i want this now because i dont fit in anymore!

TimothyT

Hi everyone!

Thanks for your comments!

Desirousofchange: Yes... i question my strategy too! It needs improving! The trouble is, im finding each day that i want to be more and more me, that its showing on the outside. Unfortunately i need to get it right! I dont want to be a hypocrite, but at the same time i dont want to cause unnescary problems for myself. Why does this organisation make me feel like this? I know of so many who have become so disgruntled! WHY??? I thought Jesus load was kindly and light? It certainly doesnt feel light! That tells me something... i believe that im under Jesus load but also i have another load beneath that... AND ITS HEAVIER - all the organisation nonsense! Thats what has tired me out! Serving Jesus is simple and very pleasant! All the organisational stuff annoys me!

SSN587: I like your style. This is how iv conducted my ministry for so long now! No mags or books! Just simpel tracts and THE BIBLE!!! I love it! I should remember that one: Leave me alone and let me do the ministry how i want! :) Cheers!

kjw53: I will turn to God! I had this before with the brother! He was stating that salvation is through the organisation! I am pretty certain that Jesus is the way, the truth and life! John 14:6! At least thats what the bible realy teaches. Iv kind of had enough of listening to this kind of argument about the organisation. Im not dissing it though because i think they have more right than wrong, but i do believe its become too much like a business than an association or cooperation to help people. Seriously, the brother, he is the territory servant, it appears to me he has his priorities completely wrong. He is more concerned about looking good and following oragnisational direction than ACTUALY trying to help and encourage people to look into the bible. I have to be honest, this isnt actualy the direction i wanted to take in my life. I always wanted to be a part of the organisation, but despite all the good things, i dont fit in anymore! I can only hope that Jehovah understands and can read my heart. I have tried so hard to be sincere and im sure he will appreciate that.

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What a STUPID morning on the ministry!

by TimothyT in

tim here.. ok... so... let me tell you about this morning and the utter stupidity of the brothers!.

just to give you a bit of background info, for those who dont know, i am a gay, 23 year old jw and im seriously heading out of the borg!

i want this now because i dont fit in anymore!

TimothyT

Hi everyone,

Tim here.

Ok... so... let me tell you about this morning and the utter STUPIDITY of the brothers!

Just to give you a bit of background info, for those who dont know, i am a gay, 23 year old JW and im seriously heading out of the borg! I want this now because i dont fit in anymore! Im trying to be strategic at the moment, as im in a situation where if i just gave it all up now, id be worse off!

Before i came out and decided i was gay, i agreed to do the 30 hours ministry for this month! Now i wish i didnt! My average for each month is about 30 anyway, and i LOVE talking to people about the bible! ITS GREAT FUN!!! But this morning, i went out, not feeling very good healthwise, and one brother was grilling me because i wasnt using the tract for this stupid campaign to get people to the memorial! Dont get me wrong... i am VERY VERY VERY appreciative of what Jesus did for us all, but i told him that i just want to do the ministry my way and in a way i feel comfortable. He wasnt having it was he.

Since being gay, iv changed a lot of my priorities! I dress comfortably, i no longer put on a show as iv always done, i no longer shave, i dont use the NWT but the King James, and i often show people KEY scriptures about Jesus and the love he has for us putting all magasines, books and brochures away. Of course, non of these things go down well do they!

Then it all came didnt it! Taken aside... why arnt u using the tract? Why arent you following the council from the FDS? (Dont get me started on this bullshi*) Why havnt you shaved? FOR GOODNESS SAKE... LEAVE ME ALONE!!! Grrrr!!!

Anyway, thanks for listening to my ramblings!

Any thoughts?

Tim xxx

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Have You Ever Experienced Depression?

by minimus in

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my mom does and has every ailment under the sun.. i know more people that are under meds for depression than not.. fortunately, i do not suffer from depression but i wonder how many do or have, especially if you were a witness..

TimothyT

I had it for 7 months! IT WAS HORRIBLE!!! I hated being alive and i hated myself!

Ironicaly my depression was caused by surpression of my sexuality - thanks to the WTS!!!

I have since accepted myself and my depression has VANISHED!!!

Now i LOVE life and im so looking forward to the future, being free and being myself!

Tim x :)

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So i'm gay and i'm damn PROUD of it! :)

by TimothyT in

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TimothyT

Lol... thanks everyone! I didnt go to the meeting tonight! I have conluded that i will only go to meetings which i believe i will get something out of!

Tonight it was about the acts book which covered ONE scripture from the bible book of Acts - i read it at home! :) The ministry school looked uninteresting and i have NEVER liked the service meeting anyway! Why dont they spend the time talking about how to be better Christians instead of DRILLING the ministry and its importance into our so impressionable minds!!! BORING!!!

Instead i stayed home and spoke with Jack! :)

Shamus: I love the video! It made me laugh so much! Cheers!

See you all soon, xxx

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So i'm gay and i'm damn PROUD of it! :)

by TimothyT in

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TimothyT

Thanks everyone,

This is such an awesome feeling! Jack and i text each other every day! I know i only met him 1 week ago, but im finding each day that im drawn more and more to him and i can see that he is clearly interested in me! Its AWESOME!!! Nice lad! :) It feels great to just be normal and do something which every normal person does. :)

Here is my old thread Heartofaboy:

http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/social/relationships/206709/1/Does-anyone-out-there-understand-how-i-feel

I have moved on a lot since. :) Thanks everyone.

Ill keep you all updated! :):):)

Tim xxx

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So i'm gay and i'm damn PROUD of it! :)

by TimothyT in

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TimothyT

Hello everyone!

Well, it’s been 4 weeks since joining this site! Firstly, thank you all so much for responding to my previous thread about my sexuality although being a JW. I appreciate your thoughts and comments.

I thought it would be appropriate that I let you all know how I’m doing. I have met so many caring and considerate people on here. I guess I should have taken the whole ‘stay away from ‘apostates’’ business with a pinch of salt - you have been more helpful to me in my recent struggles than many JW’s! Thanks so much for that.

So, I have accepted my sexuality as a gay man, and I have been actively searching for a boyfriend. I have met some great people so far. One young man I have met, named Jack, is such a lovely person. He is also a Christian and has a very high level of morality. I find this very attractive and we have already begun to speak more, and I feel our friendship is growing nicely. Plus… he is GORGEUOS! :) At first I was a little unsure about what I was doing. After 23 years of indoctrination, it quite difficult to start doing something that you know is condemnable. Nonetheless I tell myself that this is who I am. I am still going to meetings for the moment as I still believe it’s a good thing to do, but when the time comes I will have no problem with leaving it all behind me. In many ways, I don’t consider that I’m turning my back on the organisation; I see it that they are turning their backs on me!

I know that many of you still have a strong belief in God, just as I do. It will soon be the case that I will serve God in my own unique way, and I’m pretty certain that he will find my worship acceptable to him. Through careful study of the scriptures, I realise that God is merciful and gives everlasting life to those doing his will. I’m keen to continue doing his will: just with one slight difference on my part - my sexuality. I have resolved such issues now in my heart and I’m much better after doing so.

All in all, I feel HAPPY! This is the happiest I’ve felt in 8 months, and as every day passes, I feel stronger and much more sure of who I am. I love the feeling! LIFE IS GOOD!

Thanks to everyone for your support!

I love you all! :)

Love from Timmy xxx

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WOWOWOWOWOW!!!! Check this out!!!!!!

by sinis in

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http://www.godlikeproductions.com/forum1/message1328939/pg1.

jehovah's witnesses watch tower and bethel whistle-blower.

suggest pin quote [+] .

TimothyT

Interesting points, but where is the reference? It sounds interesting and could be used to stir up some SHIZZ... but i think it needs a little more credibility than a website and a recording! :)

Tim :)

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Looking for a WT reference concerning "Trust the FDS"

by drewcoul in

i am looking for which wt, and a quote that, if i remember correctly went something like, "jehovah and jesus trust the faithful and discreet slave, shouldn't you?".

i want to show this to my mother and compare it to psalm 146:3:.

"do not put your trust in nobles,.

TimothyT

I agree... the catholic church still exists... the mormons still preach... the muslims are still around...

Being a current organisation or religion in this world doesnt mean that one is annointed by God! Loads exist!

When i hear this kind of stuff i always smile and see it for what its worth... some guy just making a quick statement without actualy thinking PROPERLY about what he is writing!

Tim :)

10

Do the governing body play God?

by TimothyT in

im reading ray franz's book crisis of conscience!

it is brilliant!

he brings out some amazing points as to the credibility of the governing body!

TimothyT

Hi Paula! How are you? :) Im doing great! Day by day im feeling even better! Iv even gotten in contact with a few nice guys too! One of them i like and im getting to know a little better! It feels great just to do what I want! :)

Yes.. i discussed it with a few of my closest friends and they took it very well! :) They wernt judgemental and i told them that i CANT change anymore! My own sanity is involved! They understood! This and next weeks Watchtowers are appropriate... about falling into temptation... and next weeks is about ratting out friends who have issues! THEY BETTER NOT RAT ME OUT!!! HAHAAHAHHAHAHA!!! I dont think they will! One of them said... well Tim... ill always be here for you! AWWW!!! Isnt that sweet! :):):)

Haha... the book is AWESOME! Im telling my dad all about it! He is VERY interested too and sees through all the BS! :) Hah... if we spoke about reading CoC to the brothers... i WOULD be disfelowhipped! HAHA!!!

To be honest, from a balanced point of view, i still believe the organisation does a lot of good... and i will miss those things when i am kicked out for my sexuality... Shame! I do like it, and i always desires to stay in it as it helps me to draw closer to Jehovah! I understand i can do that myself, but its nice having close friends to help you! In those senses its something i still want to do, but, i want a boyfriend even more! :):):)

Ill keep in touch and let you know how im getting on!

Hope you are well! :)

Tim x

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Crisis of Conscience Just Arrived...

by headisspinning in

i am about to take the plunge.... will keep you posted!.

TimothyT

Awesome book! Im on page 170! LOVE IT! :)