Enlightenment comes from real reasearch and study, not spoonfeeding. If I were to attempt to enlighten you then all I would provide would be my own version of how I see the world and spirituality. The real challenge is to create your own...
Roughly translated: if you're genuinely interested in Christianity get off your hiney and read another translation of the Bible for yourself.
I'll offer you a starting point, if you're really feeling stuck, which you can take or leave. Try reading the Gospel of John in "The Message" (its a recent translation that is pretty easy to read, and should be found in most good bookshops including Amazon), and see if you can identify with the main character.
Then, if you are so inclined, maybe read a few easy-reader textbooks on things like evolution.
It doesn't take long to start discovering that there's a wide world of knowledge out there that we were once barred from. The hardest part is actually taking the time amd effort to look. The payback is tremendous.
Good luck