@Newchapter, I am aware of the possibilites, frames of minds, what have you, that exist out there (deist, theist, agnostic, atheist, and any variations of these, along with a few more obscure ones like pan-deists and pan-theists)
To me, and this might be owed to my upbringing, but also to where my mind naturally leads me with evidence thus far, is that it couldn't have happened at random. For get about "purpose for human life", etc., the mere intricacies you have to deal with in order to get life to function.....
I sometimes would like for God to be Bible God, but after examining the Bible critically, that doesn't hold up to well. At least I would know he interacts with us, or did so as some point. That's the comforting portion of it.
For now, the only thing that points me to God is our mere existence. I understand that's not enough for everyone, and even I myself like to ask, "well, where are ya, God? What the heck r ya doing? Where have you been all this time?".
Its like this, the evidence for abiogenesis is inconclusive, and IMO, inconceivable, so I reach the conclusion that for life to form, someone, something had to set it in motion. Otherwise, its just logistically impossible. That's not to say I don't have trouble reconciling God, his supposed morality, or things like. It's just that so far, everything points to intervention (at some point), whether I like it or not.
I would very much like to be an atheist, but it honestly doesn't convince me. It doesn't mean I don't see your points either. Trust me, I'm on the fence about it myself.