"i just dont know whos telling the truth :( ive been told this is all lies to take me away from jehovah, but what if they're lying?"
Independent Thinker - The best thing you can do is do research on things that YOU can prove. Research 587 BC vs 607 BC (when Jerusalem supposedly fell). There are a wealth of FACTS to be found. Research what Russell really taught pre 1914 vs what the society SAYS was taught. Read the book "The Finished Mystery" (written in 1917) and ask yourself "would Jesus really have approved this book as being "timely and accurate spiritual food" when He supposedly chose the Watchtower Society as his faithful and discreet slave in 1919? Do research on topics that YOU CAN PROVE.....not that come down to "he said this.....she said that.....so I don't know who to believe".
"why?"
Because the leaders of the organization have basically forced themselves to believe that in spite of facts......God chose them and is blessing them and them only. Even if it means quoting authorities out of context. Even if it means printing lies about the early days of the organization. Even if it means suppressing evidence. Somehow someway.....they convince themselves that it is all ok because this is what God wants. Once they are convinced that God chose them and them only as his one channel of communication.....then anything and everything they do is justified because God must have approved it.