A few weeks before my public nervous breakdown at the KH, I was interviewed onstage as an example for other young brothers to be a happy Elder like me...
I said the words because I was expected to, but inside I knew I did not wish anyone to experience the torture of that position.
On the outside I was a 'Happy, Joyful Elder', while on the inside I was planning suicide as my only escape...
The 'yoke is light', my ass it is.