This disgusts me to the point of tears. I suffered so much emotional turmoil at the hands of my parents, other witnesses, and the rules and regulations of the WTBS. I suffered with major depression as a child and teenager due to this. I also developed Borderline Personality Disorder due to these conditions growing up. I remember wanting to die as a teenager and young adult, several hospitalizations, years of therapy and medication. I am finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Everytime I have any dealings with these people I go right back into depression mode. So glad I am fianally free from the clutches of ignorance and abuse! If only I could have helped this young girl. Oh, how sad this makes me. I can only hope her parents wake up and realize what has happened here. I lost my uncle and two cousins (by marriage) to suicide. I put full blame on the WTBS for all three. Angry and saddened by this. Kelly N.
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In Lima, Peru 15 year old JW child commits suicide
by discreetslave ini'll translate the artcle since online translators did a terrible job.
the link to the original article is below.
lima 8/3/2011.
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Prayer
by yrkdnme ini am interested to know from other long time wittnesses if they had a hard time with prayer after leaving the organization?
when i left i found it so difficult to pray to "jehovah" and still do to this day.
i am always more comfortable with just "god".
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yrkdnme
Hi. I am interested to know from other long time wittnesses if they had a hard time with prayer after leaving the organization? When I left I found it so difficult to pray to "Jehovah" and still do to this day. I am always more comfortable with just "God". Since leaving the witnesses behind I have developed a close and personal relationship with Jesus. I never had that growing up. I can say God and be ok with it but when I say Jehovah, it still conjures up such fear in my heart. Fear of displeasing him, of failing and dying. When I talk with "God" or Jesus, I feel very free and lighthearted. Can anyone else identify with this?
My mother, both grandmothers and aunt were reg pios. I was immersed in JW culture from birth. I attended all meetings, had no worldly friends, was baptized at 14 (and df'd by 20), pioneered myself every summer and on secular holidays. At my judicial meeting I went into the waiting area and prayed for Jehovah to make them disfellowship me, that if he really was God and he knew how unhappy I had been all my life that he would do that for me. I WANTED to get away from all of them and knew that being df'd was really the only way to make them all leave me alone. I left and never looked back. It was so hard for me but I knew this was my baptism into the "real world". It was something I had to do, I didn't want any of them in my life anymore! So, having said that, why do some find this so hard to do? It's all lies, get out, move on, you'll be much happier after you do!! Help me understand why some people can't let go and continue to hang on for years and years. I was more miserable in than I ever have been once I got out and overcame the depression of losing everyone. Yes, there is a despondent period you will go through and alot of guilt, but it is sooooooo worth it on the other side!
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Songs I wanted in the new songbook
by discreetslave inhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vdb-8elew8g&feature=related.
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yrkdnme
How about "Down at the Kingdom Hall" by Van Morrison? That's pretty funny.
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Car Full of JW's while I'm at the Car Wash............
by Terry ini'm sort of angry right now.. no, not angry..... i'm shaky.
at least, when i lift my cup of coffee to my lips, sitting here at starbucks, my hand is trembly.. i hate that!.
the power they have to still reach me on some hidden point that hides in the corners of my very being.... .
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yrkdnme
I think you did great. I agree with Violia, they're drones. Everything they say is by wrote, and they are programmed with the appropriate responses just about anything remember. It's much harder to be a "free thinker." Anyone can just dole out practiced responses, but it takes freedom of mind to make true and honest responses which is what you did! I'm sorry you had to mess up your day this way!! I bet that Starbuck's made you feel much better tho! Have a wonderful day!
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Funny childhood memory
by truthseeker1969 ini was discussing with my mother who is an active witness what i was like as a young jw kid.. she told me about the time there was a discussion way back in the early seventies about how armageddon would be a time of terror and there would be so much going on.. that night she said there was a terrible thunderstorm and she said the following morning i woke her up to tell her we "survived armageddon and could i please go play with the animals".
oh the life of a child!.
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yrkdnme
Because of the story angels striking down the firstborn of those without the blood on the doorpost I was terrified as a child that the angels would come and get me in my bed at night.
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JW nephew graduation party cancelled... your insight is requested
by Alfred ini have a jw nephew in another state who was at very the top of his high school senior class this year.
because of this, my sister (an elder's wife) had planned and sent out invitations to his "graduation party" which would be held at a community center with all the bells and whistles.
i actually bought plane tickets for my wife and i to attend this party immediately after receiving the invitation in the mail.
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yrkdnme
WELLLLL, Get this-at 20 when I was disfellowshiped people actually had the nerve to ask for their graduation gifts back that were given to me two years earlier. How INSANE was that???
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"Friend" me!
by Mad Sweeney inif we "know" each other here and we're not yet fb friends, please feel free to "friend" me.
i think i'm the only mad sweeney on there.. if/when you send the friend request, let me know who you are here on jwn, because i don't generally accept requests from people i don't know from online.. thanks!.
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yrkdnme
My name is Kelly N. I have been df'd for 15 years. I am not shy at all about revealing my name or any other facts about my past. I am from North Carolina. I come from a line of pioneers and I am very knowledgeable about "the truth." I enjoy most of the posts on here, but am dismayed at some that sound about as rambling as some of the written material of the wittnesses. Just get to the point already! Oh, and can someone tell me what a PM is. I'm sure I'll feel silly for asking once someone tells me! Thanks!
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"Friend" me!
by Mad Sweeney inif we "know" each other here and we're not yet fb friends, please feel free to "friend" me.
i think i'm the only mad sweeney on there.. if/when you send the friend request, let me know who you are here on jwn, because i don't generally accept requests from people i don't know from online.. thanks!.
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yrkdnme
I sent you a friend request on FB. I am looking for some ex-JW friends to "compare notes" with. LOL
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Watchtower and 2014
by Marvin Shilmer inwatchtower and 2014. .
today i uploaded a new article offering my views of what watchtower has waiting in the wings.
my article is titled watchtower and 2014 and is available at: http://marvinshilmer.blogspot.com/2011/06/watchtower-and-2014.html.
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yrkdnme
I believe that they will completely revamp their disfellowshiping policies, and make it much easier for disfelloshiped ones to return to "the fold." They have already made it somewhat easier to be reinstated. But I think they may do away with this practice all together... What do you think?
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For exJW Singles - Would You Consider Dating/Marrying Another ExJW?
by Broken Promises indo you consider being an exjw a hindrance to dating?
for example, do you find it difficult to bring up in conversation, lest you get stared at as if you have 2 heads or something?
or you might find it difficult to explain why you've had little sexual experience in the past?.
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yrkdnme
I don't care to date ex-Jws. You never know when they are going to get an attack of conscience and want to go back. I will NEVER go back and I know that for a fact, but you never know about someone else!!