wow, i haven't posted on here in a long time... i lurked, back in the winter of '00, and posted in early '01 a few times.
looking back on those posts, and other stuff written, it amazes me how much can change... i thought to integrate myself into this web community i'd tell some of my story.... i was not raised in the truth.
i fell in love with a jw boy when i was 20 and married him.
Moody,
Thanks for sharing. It is a refreshing breathe of fresh air to be able to be free. Glad you were able to find the truth for yourself.
Best wishes in your journey. Keep posting.
ps - I think jaysong is cute.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
interesting news article: http://web.star-telegram.com/content/fortworth/2002/01/10/dfw/news-011002-02.htm
Well, they certainly cannot point the finger at their friend the UN.
Or are they still pointing at the UN while trying to keep their enemy close in the guise of friendship.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
it has occurred to me that ive been here long enough and have met many of you whose company i really appreciate.
i see people come in since i have been here and am inspired and impressed at the courage they have for giving their stories, their experiences and the freedoms they now have paid for by a cost that only a cult survivor can really appreciate.. so with that inspiration, here is my story.... i have very little memory of before i was 5. i do remember christmas morning one year to wake up to a ton of toys and that was cool.
i remember having my stomach pumped once because i got into some kerosene and thought id pour myself a glass.
kenny,
Thanks for sharing. It is comforting to all of us here to hear from others. As someone said earlier, it reminds us we are not alone.
Keep on sharing.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
please,there are still x-dubs posting on this board that think they are free from the watchtower.
they say things like, "well it may not be the perfect truth, but they, (the wt) still teach good morals" etc.. remember we are talking about brainwashing here, & its a very tricky & insidious practice!.
i have devised a simple test.
Moman,
I understand what you are saying. However, I must agree with Skeptic. Asking black and white questions is trouble. Life cannot be judged as black and white. I tried it as a JW - I was raised a JW. In time, I realized that looking at everything as black or white - right or wrong - is problematic.
No one knows what another person is thinking or feeling. There are many people that are JW or even former JW who believe in their hearts they are doing what God wants them to do. Some of these people are good people who are truly trying, others are people who are drawn extremes, and others are on a power high enjoying the feelings of superiority.
For every bad person and bad deed there are good people and good deeds. Do not get me wrong, I am not supporting the JW. If I was still "borganized" I would not be able to see the good in those outside of the JW. Every religion has those who abuse it and those who do not abuse it.
As for Hilter, Hitler thought he was going mankind a favor and in his day due to the programming to hate outsiders many did not question what he was doing. Hilter tithing to the Catholic Church until the day he died although he killed his share of Catholics who did not fit his idea of the perfect person. Unfortunately, those who knew what was happening were brain washed into believing in the perfect human race. Others just could not believe that what they heard was happening was actually happening.
Looking at things as black and white is what creates situations such as Hitler. My way or no way is detrimental is society. This is what Hitler did regarding race and religion. This is what the JW are doing now just on a lessor level. This is what anyone who must have things in black and white is doing to society.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
just discovered this thread by going to who's who.. i guess i'll add my life story.. born and raised a dub, i didn't really mind being a witness but always had a secret desire to celebrate christmas, birthdays and halloween.
they always looked fun.. had a really fun time during the teen years, had some great friends and we did our share of partying, but never really got out of hand.
i was, for the most part, pretty good.
Tweetie Bird,
Thank you so much for your post. I was raised a JW too and appreciate what you are saying. I have accepted true Christian teachings and at times have to fight what the JW teach in my own head... sometimes I wonder if I will ever believe any particular teaching without the doubts.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
i have never really shared my experience growing up as a jw, but feel it is time to share.
i am 26 years old and was raised as a jw from birth.
i left the jw when i was 14 by actions and 21 by a written letter, because i was baptised at the age of 11. .
Waiting, yes, I am from SC.
Thanks everyone for the encouragement.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
i know that people have been in the same boat as i am and have felt the same but i still feel very alone tonight.
and very depressed.
i dont think some people understand even here.
Flower,
Warmest hugs and affection are sent to you. I can relate to how you are feeling. For a while, I lived with those feelings on a daily basis. Even down, those feelings come back every now and then. Please look into therapy and maybe medication to help you work through your feelings. Find a group you can join. A hobby that you can meet with people and enjoy. Maybe a church if you are ready or interested. I found that reaching out and getting involved was a life saver for me. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself and do not feel bad about posting when you feel down.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
if it is possible can you post why you were disfellowshipped?
YOYO
You state you are "sort of a psychiatrist" well to be frank, I doubt that unless being around the JW has done enough damage to you that you have spent excessive amounts of time with a psychiatrist. To be a JW in good standing, it is not possible for you to have enough education to be a psychiatrist or even enough education to understand what psychiatry is truly about. The studying of JW materials does not count. Sorry.
If coming to this web site builds up your faith then I feel sorry for you. You should build up your faith by reading your bible and studying history. If you cannot build up your faith in those manners then you are in sad shape. Faith can be supported by facts. Unfortunately, if you were to truly investigate the facts you would find out the facts do not support the JW. Building your faith by visiting this website and trying to instigate people by not answering valid questions asked of you shows that ego and being better than everyone is what builds your faith. Ego and being better than everyone else is not biblical. Love is.
So, as far as I am concerned you can avoid me like the plague. The JW are false prophets who are conning people into joining them. I bet you the numbers of JW supplied by the "headquarters" are fixed in one manner or another, because all "headquarters" is interested in is MONEY. The label placed on my by the JW does not matter to me and is not something I share. I walked away with no regrets.
Always, MissSC
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-
i have never really shared my experience growing up as a jw, but feel it is time to share.
i am 26 years old and was raised as a jw from birth.
i left the jw when i was 14 by actions and 21 by a written letter, because i was baptised at the age of 11. .
Thank you everyone for your positive responses.
I look forward to posting in the future.
i have never really shared my experience growing up as a jw, but feel it is time to share.
i am 26 years old and was raised as a jw from birth.
i left the jw when i was 14 by actions and 21 by a written letter, because i was baptised at the age of 11. .
I have never really shared my experience growing up as a JW, but feel it is time to share. I am 26 years old and was raised as a JW from birth. I left the JW when I was 14 by actions and 21 by a written letter, because I was baptised at the age of 11.
I left the JW because of the circumstances surronding my parents divorce. My "best friends" growing up started avoided me, because I slipped and said d***. Then the division became final when it became "public" knowledge that my father abused me sexually. Apparently, they blamed me for what happened and felt I had done something wrong. Their father said they were young (15) and needed to be shelter from such things so he felt no need to explain to them that what happened was not my fault. Mom thought I was having sex and drug me to a Gyn telling him I was sexually active - when I was not. Then she told others what she thought I was doing. During this time she became physically violent and I started realizing that several of her JW friends were violent too. One "sister" said that I was a whore when I shaved with her razor while staying at her house.
As time went on, my mom left the JW's (she was df due to smoking and becoming involved with non JW man). Then she stood by the JW teachings, but would not going to meetings and such. After this, I tried staying a JW for a while, but finally left.
The pain, hurt, trauma, and mixture of other feelings that exist is too much to talk about. I have moved on with my life. However, there are feelings of resentment I feel that are too great to explain. I am finally able to attend college full time - I have been attending part time for several years now. The funny thing is my mom is proud I am going to college - I am aiming for a MA in History and my Phd in Theology. My self esteem has finally reached normal levels over the past few years.
I worry daily about my mom, because she sticks by these teachings of false prophets on a daily basis and says she will go back when she is living her life the way Jehovah wants her to. I want her to understand the true meaning of the love of God and Jesus, but she is so brain washed by these people that it is scary.
Thanks for listening.... reading.
