Sharing my opinion is meant kindly, however you may take it.
Ok, well I will take it kindly then!
I get what you are saying but like you stated - you are saying it after 33 years.
For me, I still have one foot in and one foot out physically (family reasons) and yet mentally I am all out.
Emotionally ? Ah, that is where the rub is. Someday's I feel free and triumphant that I can reclaim at least the rest of what's left of my life.
Other days, I grieve and feel lost. I wonder if I will ever get to a new normal.
That's quite a swing between two ways of thinking. Especially for someone who has never felt "lost" in life before now.
My biggest solace at those times is to come here.
Reading peoples posts on all the forms of "injustice and bullshit" helps.
For some reason, I find enormous comfort in knowing I'm not alone in some of the things I experienced. Reading has helped me realize that in fact, some here have had it much worse than I!
That helps to give perspective while I go through whatever this is I am going through.
I didn't dedicate my life, live in harmony with that dedication, find out it was a lie and leave all in one day or week.
I wont be done with processing it in a day or a week either.
After all the pressure and push push push constantly from the Witnesses - its NICE when people here tell me "take your time" examine what you think, test it out.
To be frank, your post makes me feel pressured. Like I should "hurry up and heal".
I realize that probably isn't how you meant it at all.
That's just how I take things currently in my wounded myopic state.
