discreetslave
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Songs I wanted in the new songbook
by discreetslave inhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vdb-8elew8g&feature=related.
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It's been a year now... (Yay me.)
by VampireDCLXV ini guess that my one year anniversary here has come.. i've made lots of friends... and perhaps a few enemies.. i've made people laugh... i've pissed people off.... i've made people think... i've made people cringe.... i've moved ahead in some areas of life... still stuck in some others.... i've had a lot of fun... i've had some tense moments and tears.... i've been able to make sense to people... spoke utter nonsense at other times.... to my 'fans' here: thanks for the support and having my back... .
to people who hate my guts: go ahead... take your best shot... .
either way, i win.
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discreetslave
Happy Anniversary!!!
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Things to inspire JW Youth...We're rooting for you
by discreetslave injehovah's witnesses have the lowest retention rate of any religious tradition.
only 37% of all those who say they were raised as jehovah's witnesses still identify themselves as jehovah's witnesses.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6d2w-enhvdk.
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Reaching Your Dream Takes Courage
Courage is admitting that you're afraid and facing that fear directly. It's being strong enough to ask for help and humble enough to accept it.
Courage is standing up for what you believe in without worrying about the opinions of others. It's following your own heart, living your own life, and settling for nothing less than the best for yourself.
Courage is daring to take a first step, a big leap, or a different path. It's attempting to do something that no one has done before and all others thought impossible.
Courage is keeping heart in the face of disappointment and looking at defeat not as an end but as a new beginning. It's believing that things will ultimately get better even as they get worse.
Courage is being responsible for your own actions and admitting your own mistakes without placing blame on others. It's relying not on others for your success, but on your own skills and efforts.
Courage is refusing to quit even when you're intimidated by impossibility. It's choosing a goal, sticking with it, and finding solutions to the problems.
Courage is thinking big, aiming high, and shooting far. It's taking a dream and doing anything, risking everything, and stopping at nothing to it make it a reality.
~ Caroline Kent ~
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discreetslave
Fading into oblivion may not happen. Access to a Flock Book = Apostate Contact to them. So you are now on radar their guns aimed at you to remove the wicked one.
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Another MUSIC thread - One-Hit Wonders
by sizemik inthere's been plenty over the last five decades .
artists that have come and gone .
and left a single musical legacy behind them.. but a lot of them were great songs .
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discreetslave
I remember dancing to this at a Bethel party on the Bossert Roof
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In Unusual Move, Brokerage To Handle Sale of Watchtower Buildings
by blondie inhttp://www.brooklyneagle.com/categories/category.php?category_id=5&id=45181.
3 brooklyn heights properties have combined estimated value of $18.45m.
by linda collins.
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discreetslave
There was a mother in the south who didn't have the money to pay for her child's bloodless surgery since her state medicaid wouldn't cover it.
http://abcnews.go.com/Health/video/johovahs-witness-seeks-bloodless-surgery-11681184
Give them the money
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In Unusual Move, Brokerage To Handle Sale of Watchtower Buildings
by blondie inhttp://www.brooklyneagle.com/categories/category.php?category_id=5&id=45181.
3 brooklyn heights properties have combined estimated value of $18.45m.
by linda collins.
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discreetslave
On Watchtowerdocuments.com Barbara states they used Cohi Towers Associates, an organization formed by a number of wealthy Jehovah’s Witnesses to purchase buildings for the Watchtower’s use in the early 1980's.
So it's not the first time they use others to handle their real estate.
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Caught Crying
by discreetslave ini was reading some ex-jw experiences and i started crying.
a flood of emotions came over me, anger, guilt, sorrow, grief, and fear.. anger over being deceived and betrayed.anger over the stupidity regarding child abuse.
i was abused before being a jw and this is an issue i feel strongly about.. guilt for bringing others into jw matrix.
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discreetslave
Thanks guys!!! I value your insights.
I would be worried if I didn't cry over all this. Crying is cathartic & therapeutic. It's a part of the grieving & moving on process. The websites & forums are new to me like anything new, one obsesses a while then it finds it's place. I liken it to support meetings. I'm social.
My life revolved around JW's. I was the one people came to to discuss their problems. Some people called me everyday. I'd hang up the phone in a while someone else was calling or someone showed up at my door. The friends in service stopped by regularly to have a drink, use the bathroom, talk, etc. My door was always open. I had a group of older ones I visited or called regularly. I'd take care of or tutor their kids, fixed their computers, helped them clean, help with hospitality, planned field trips, do their taxes, help with talks or demos, looked up stuff on the internet for them, helped plan vacations, and the list goes on. My leaving was not easy for me. I love being there for people. I'll admit my things suffered at times. And I'll admit it hurt when the depression overwhelmed me and no one noticed. I didn't do those things expecting anything in return but I could not help but notice when I needed someone no one was there for me. Yet when I'd bounce back I went on caring for everyone else that is my nature. I'd like to think the friends find themselves missing me now that I'm not around to do what I did for them. Though I plan on driving my daughter to make the rounds to the elderly ones so that they'll see me in the car & know I still care.
I reminded my husband what my days were like. Now I'm dead to them. He said that was my choice it didn't have to be this way. I said it did there was no other way. I could not continue being a JW knowing what I did. There was no turning back. I considered staying in for a while but it's against my grain to lead a double life. Staying a JW was not an option especially after the shepherding calls. The ignorance & arrogance was maddening.
So I feel forums and the websites are just a stepping stone. And I feel my decision regarding a career will involve something JW related. I've always felt I'd be a good psychologist and I've always wanted to write. I hope my experiences as a JW will be of benefit to someone in those pursuits. I believe in paying it forward. I'm looking ahead and planning on broadening my horizons. I've started researching colleges and financial aid. I'm looking to find ways to meet new people. I've reached out to my neighbors and people I've crossed paths with. Making friends has never been a problem for me.
Most of all I plan on keeping my family together even if my husband never escapes. I am determined that my children will learn to chase their dreams and never be a JW.
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Caught Crying
by discreetslave ini was reading some ex-jw experiences and i started crying.
a flood of emotions came over me, anger, guilt, sorrow, grief, and fear.. anger over being deceived and betrayed.anger over the stupidity regarding child abuse.
i was abused before being a jw and this is an issue i feel strongly about.. guilt for bringing others into jw matrix.
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discreetslave
These songs come to mind reflecting on all this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U6tV11acSRk&feature=related
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i think i might return to the WTS
by dm6 inman im so drained right now and tired i cant say a whole lot.. but you know, i was thinking about going back to them and just to see a bit more about it all.. i dont know to be very honest with you if its thr right thing to do or not on a personal level.. .
i guess i need to mull things over.. .
any suggestions from previous jw's would be awesome for me.
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discreetslave
THINK VERY CAREFULLY ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE CONSIDERING
I know what you're feeling wondering if they are right. You only studied for a year. I became one @ 17 I'm now 33 it takes work to get them out of your system. I'm new to this journey. This site is full of ones who gave years or their whole life to that religion. We know the what if's are hard to shake.
No one should tell you what to do. The JW's are all about telling you what to do. Some cong are different. The one I just left still lovebomb the studies on the fence in hopes they'll step in line and get dunked. Other cong. we will be civil to your face @ a meeting but that's it.
If you're thinking about going back because you have a spiritual need or want to be a christian then there are other ways. i think it's in our makeup whether or not we're believers. Maybe it's part of the evolutionary cycle. There are those who have no need or desire for spiritual things, there are those of us who do, some are on the fence. You have to pick what's right for you. Atheist, Christian, Buddhist, etc.. The point is for you to find your bliss.
Many feel being a JW is their bliss I thought so. Then I realized my recent unhappines, depression, low self worth was due to their way of worship. To each his own. You're having issues emotionally worries me. The make up of this religion is not a good fit for your problems. The constant demands for an outward appearance feed the vicious cycle of low self worth & depression.
Please feel free to PM me if you need to talk