Esmeralda-It almost seems like you are going out of your way to be unhappy for the rest of your life. You were in a very happy relationship with a man, yet choose to end it instead of seeing it through. You are afraid of being trapped in a marriage that will require unquestioning submission to a man. That unquestioning submission is a requirement of Jehovah-Witnesses. The same people you are trying to 'join'. The JW's don't approve of your continuing your education either. You don't want your parents to be disrespected, yet any beliefs they hold that are in conflict with JW doctrine will cause disrespect by others in the congregation. To JW's your parents will always be blind, led by Satan and his demons and under their influence no matter how wonderful they are.
Just why are you studying and trying to join people who disapprove of education, your parents and wish for you to go against natural feelings of being able to hold an opinion different from a man and that the opinion may be valuable? Also remember, the Governing Body will also require your unquestioning obedience to WHATEVER they decree now and in the future. The penalty for non-compliance is disfellowshipping-this after they have separated you from all your family and friends (boyfriend too) to ensure your loneliness....