I'm so sorry, too, Julia. She's "just following orders," which is what Nazis and JW's do.
When you get right down to it, the fact is that you have been honored. You are thinking for yourself, and shunned for it.
I recommend that you read Jonathan Livingston Seagull. He was dishonored when he should have been honored because he went outside the boundaries of being a regular seagull. He flew higher than any of the other seagulls.