Fallingaway, hello and welcome to the forum.
You're going through a lot right now, of that there is no doubt.
It's good your husband is not opposing you. Perhaps there is a chance you two can get out together, but you must proceed slowly and cautiously at first.
Have you considered bringing up to him the fact that JW practices and policies actually drive a wedge between family members, including a husband and a wife? Nobody feels safe to share their doubts and questions with anyone else for fear of being labelled an apostate, disfellowshipped and shunned.
Is this what Jesus would have wanted?
Hang in there. It gets better!
00DAD