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  Letting Go.......

  by ScoobySnax in

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  i was thinking today about my old grandad who passed away 6 weeks ago.

  my sister had pulled out of the cupboard a couple of camcorder films of him taken in the last 10 years, and before now i felt it was way too soon to watch them but felt that now i'd be ok now.

  we sat there for a bit, finger hovering over the play button.....go on i said play it, lets see him again.

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  Scoob, thank you. I will email you, it does help to talk. Aunthill is right, the first year is the hardest. I think there will always be a part of you that in essence goes with them, just as there are also things that help us grow, which I think is a process through our entire lives. The scabs still losen and leave us a bit of an open sore, but that is a testiment of our love. The memories of of what we are missing are also memories of what we have shared and there are more memories that while they bring a tear, can bring a smile at the same time.

  Don't be afraid to grieve, don't fight it, it will allow you to heal.

  Love back to you,

  Karla
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  Letting Go.......

  by ScoobySnax in

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  i was thinking today about my old grandad who passed away 6 weeks ago.

  my sister had pulled out of the cupboard a couple of camcorder films of him taken in the last 10 years, and before now i felt it was way too soon to watch them but felt that now i'd be ok now.

  we sat there for a bit, finger hovering over the play button.....go on i said play it, lets see him again.

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  ((((((((((((((((Scooby)))))))))))))))

  It is hard to let go. I lost my grandmother last year, I was fortunate enough to have her until she was 90. Even then I still had it in my heart that she would keep going on (denial, denial denial). I was able to see her a month before she died I live in the south, she in Michigan. (I am eternally grateful for that one last chance) Nevertheless when we were gathered around the table for dinner the night before her funeral I looked across the table where she should have been and the absence hit me so suddenly. I stopped mid-meal and excused myself from the table and went outside and grieved. Minutes later I heard her great-grand children (my daughter included) coming my way. I was comforted by their sweetness and youth and I found comfort in the circle of life. No matter what that loss is there, whether you have contact just before they are gone or not. When you have time to work through the emotions, the wonderful memories are there and that is part of your grandfathers legacy to you.

  I lost my mother the following December due to complications of cancer. My brother had video taped her ( he was taping her as she had gotten a shower to refresh herself and had come out in a comfortable gown and robe). She was one not to be seen without her make up so she went running through his house giggling for him to stop, but he just followed enjoying the squeals and laughter. This would be the last moments of her captured on film, she died about a week later. My brother went to show us the tape and somehow it had been taped over. I was heartbroken, maybe it was a blessing in disguise. I can picture it so clearly without seeing it, and I will settle for that.

  It is refreshing to see you have such a love for someone who was once one of your caretakers. Your grandfather knew that and he would not want you to punish yourself for something unseen. If we punished ourselves for all of our what ifs we wouldn't make it through life. The time will come for you to pass on that same love of your grandfather, and someone will look up to you with that same love and admiration you gave him.

  All my best to you, and my deepest sympathy,

  Karla
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  Put in time or be disassociated!

  by VM44 in

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  in a recent thread, metatron wrote:(recent change: the inactive need to put in time or be disassociated).

  when was this policy introduced!

  seems rather harsh!.

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  Put in time or be disassociated!

  They cant fire me! I quit !!!
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  seven006, you worthless dog

  by onacruse in

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  a moderator, eh?.

  may 10,000 fleas infest your private parts.... (as if they haven't already).

  craig

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  Congratulations Dave. oops are we allowed to say that, or is it pagan?
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  Secret Santa II......

  by Gadget in

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  i've just read in another thread that due to circumstances the secret santa for this year hasn't been able to happen, so i want to try and organise another one!.

  according to the lady at the post office, the closing date for international mail to be delivered before xmas is this week, but for post on the same continent we still have a few weeks so i'll try and take that into account so everyone can have their prezzy before christmas day.

  if everyone who wants to join in can pm or email me at [email protected] with their details before 12noon sunday 30th november(uk time), i'll try and get the details back to you by sunday night.

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  I have been out of town and came back to a computer that is down. I just received notice about this thread so I hope I am not too late.

  Just in case, here are my hints.

  My favorite color is blue, I love candles, and I collect moose(s)
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  Mouthy is not feeling well...

  by invictus in

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  we just returned from visiting mouthy- she is not feeling well -her back is "out "since friday, and she is in so much pain she can hardly walk.

  she is still a trooper,doesn`t complain much but it is obvious it is not easy for her.. she is not able to post much right now because she needs to lie down and rest,but she sends all of you lots of hugs and kisses.with her permission i am writting this, so if someone would like to send her some get well thoughts it would be much appreciated.. thank you all.. get well soon dear grace , we love you very much.

  invictus and family

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  (((((((((((((Grace)))))))))))( a big but tender hug, cuz I am being careful of your back)

  I hope you feel better soon.
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  Just lost our parents....

  by 2escaped lifers in

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  well, the shunning begins.

  we finally had "the" discussion with my parents, that we no longer consider ourselves jw's, and a little bit of why we felt that way.

  of course, "dad the elder and po" and mom the pioneer dutifully informed us that not only will they be "loyal to the organization" and shun us completely, but that he would immediately let the other elders know, so that proper judicial action could be taken.. it was a heart wrenching discussion, with all of us, including my two young boys (9 and 10) all balling our eyes out.

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  (((((((((((Brandon & Family)))))))))

  It is amazing how they feel the need for total control, and then blame you despite the fact that they are deciding to shun the family.It is sad because the control comes from a man made cult who uses fear instead of love to keep their members.

  Karla
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  My mommy is dying.... :(

  by outnfree in

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  i'm off to new york this morning.

  i'm fortunate that my oldest daughter will drive with me, missing class to support her mom and possibly to say a final farewell to her grandma.. my mother has has two strokes this year, and, after the first one in may, told me that she felt like she was dying from the inside out.

  she had another stroke at the end of august, and was eventually put in a nursing home.

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  (((((((((((Brenda))))))))))

  Sorry to hear such sad news. It is amazing how the reconcilliation works out, I went thru that similarly this very time last year. Not everyone has the chance for goodbye. It reminds us not to take one another for granted. My thoughts are with you, you have been through so much this year please call me if you need to talk.

  Love, Karla
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  I did something ...really ...really ...bad

  by seven006 in

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  as many of you know there has been little friction on the board lately do to some recent deletions and exodus to another board.

  in my deep sympathy and feeling of total unconcern about these events i took it upon myself to do something about it.

  i planed my strategy using maps, schematics, long ropes, a 12 year old bottle of single malt scotch and about three minutes of planing.

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  Scully, can you qualify if you cover your head with a napkin or something?
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  I did something ...really ...really ...bad

  by seven006 in

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  as many of you know there has been little friction on the board lately do to some recent deletions and exodus to another board.

  in my deep sympathy and feeling of total unconcern about these events i took it upon myself to do something about it.

  i planed my strategy using maps, schematics, long ropes, a 12 year old bottle of single malt scotch and about three minutes of planing.

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  Dave, I am sorry for picking on ya, it was just a little too easy

  BTW, I loved this thread, and I had to find some way to join in, even if it was at your expense.