I want to explain to you why I am not longer preaching after 27 years in the organization.
You can decide if it is because I no longer have Jehovahs spirit.
Do you remember that day in Kansas when my friends 12 yr old daughter ran away from home?
We tried to find her and eventually she was found at a worldly friend's house. The elders decided that no one should talk to her until her father; the Head of the Family was present. So I went home and they handled it and the family went home together. Can you imagine what was happening to that little girl at her fathers hands? Unless you are a real sicko, I doubt you will be able to do so. It included having her pet lambs legs cut off in front of her as a threat to silence. It was a few more years before the truth came out about the abuse and in the mean time her two younger sisters were abused. I was sick sick sick for months, I thought how culpable we all were, but I kept preaching.
Do you remember when that wonderful single sister asked the brothers in the neighboring congregation about the EX-elder who was interested in marrying her? He was divorced and no longer an elder she wanted to be sure he was okay, but they assured her, he was without reproach She was married to him for about 5 years before he confessed to raping his two young daughters, a charge that had been brought before the elders. Of course, it was his ex wife that was disfellowshipped and his daughters silenced. The elders told my friend she was not scripturally free because she married him after the event. But I kept preaching.
Do you remember my sister whose alcoholic husband beat and psychologically abused her? But the elders always blamed her; beat her with the Family Book as she liked to say. Do you remember when she told the elder about her husbands drinking problem and the elder asked her husband, Do you have a drinking problem? And he said no. Then she was told she was the one with a problem.
Do you remember that terrible night when her husband was driving drunk and ran over those two kids on the side of the road, killing the boy? And do you know what the elders asked my sister? What did you do to make him drink? She was sitting at the Thursday Meeting that night.
But I kept Preaching.
Do you remember my friend who watched her daughter bleed to death in childbirth? But now the blood components have changed and maybe she would have lived. Oh, well, But I kept Preaching..
Do you remember my friend in a foreign country who served two years in a bad prison for neutrality? He was beaten and cannot have children now. But now the rules have changed and there is alternative service. But I kept preaching.
What about the little girl who was raped recently in our congregation, justice was served in the legal system and he was incarcerated. But he came back to the hall and of course the elders support him, who cares about the victim? Who cares if we cover over the sins of pedophiles and allow them to turn our little girls into strippers and prostitutes and our young men into pedophiles? I cared and so I got to meet with the men in the back room. I felt like I was in a scene from the Sopranos and I was being threatening by a Made Man.
And I wondered .If an organization uses threats of disfellowshipping or other intimidation to shut people up dont they cease from being a religious organization and become part of organized crime?
And can you believe I kept preaching?
But no more. What would you have me tell people? This organization SHOULD be okay for you if nothing goes wrong in your life? But if it does and especially if you are a woman or a child, then this organization will destroy your life? Is that the message you would have me bring to the doors?