a) next time tell him to get his fucking hands off your car and close the door
Lol! Too funny...
so, on sunday i left the meeting and was sitting in my car putting my keys in the ignition, an elder pulled on my door handal and opened up.
i rolled my eyes, this man is annoying...anyway he asked if i was going to be around wednesday.
i told him i should be.
a) next time tell him to get his fucking hands off your car and close the door
Lol! Too funny...
so, on sunday i left the meeting and was sitting in my car putting my keys in the ignition, an elder pulled on my door handal and opened up.
i rolled my eyes, this man is annoying...anyway he asked if i was going to be around wednesday.
i told him i should be.
So, on Sunday I left the meeting and was sitting in my car putting my keys in the ignition, an elder pulled on my door handal and opened up. I rolled my eyes, this man is annoying...anyway he asked if I was going to be around Wednesday. I told him I should be. He said "we wanna have a shepherding call with you, you're not in trouble or anything, just going through the list in my group". His statements lead me to believe that I am in some sort of "trouble" with them. I am pretty regular the meetings I miss maybe one every three or four meetings but I have given up in field service this year, I don't remember if I turned in time last month. Granted, his wife is one of the reasons why I totally stopped service, she snitched on me to my sister, telling her that I have no rv's when we worked together in service and that I always left right after the meetings were over. So her comments about the no rvs was the last straw for me and I never met the group again.
Anyway, I know if I really don't want to go to through with it all I don't have to, but you know they'll hound me until I meet with them. And I know I can lie to them and claim some kind of problem or illness as the reason why I don't care to go out anymore, but I'm really tired and I really don't care about most witnesses and their conditional friendships anymore...it's my family that I care about and I'm not ready to loose them so I'm sloooooly trying to fade, little by little, but in a meeting with the elders like this I'm really afraid I will tell them my true feelings and my life could change in an evening...
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Aww, I'm gonna miss reading new chapters. Hopefully rose and Wyatt never step into a hall again...
or so says the person who left this comment on jwsurvey.org.... what just amazes me is how people can pass judgement on others, make vast sweeping statements and make out that they know best.
this isnt just based on this page, but other pages ive read on this website.
while youre at it why not just say all black people are criminals, all asians are rapists and all white people molest their children.
here is the phone conversation my super zealous betholite sister just had with me:.
sister - how was your ministry this morning?.
me- i didn't make it out (actually i haven't been out on a sat morning in months).
Here is the phone conversation my super zealous betholite sister just had with me:
sister - how was your ministry this morning?
me- I didn't make it out (actually I haven't been out on a sat morning in months)
sister- oh you rested today, but you're working right now?
me - yes
sister - a sister in your hall is working at bethel this weeken, she's really nice!
me - yes she is (this is a lie, I think the sister she referred to is a big gossip)
sister - I was invited to someone's house for lunch tomorrow, you won't find that anywhere else, only Jehovah's people are that nice
me - I did not respond to her
sister - hello are you still there?
me - yes
sister - it's too bad you HAVE to work Saturdays
me - I don't mind, I'm not doing anything anyway (actually I really enjoy my second job, I get to hang out with my BFF every weekend who's not a jw)
sister - you should be using that time to be associating with the friends in the congregation, you should be getting to know them better
i ended the conversation there, it's a shame that witnesses are so closed minded when it comes to making friends with others. I'm really an introvert and I don't like being around a whole bunch of people. I also have a pretty good read on people and I don't like most of them in the congregation. She just spoiled my evening with this dumb conversation...
i've been mentally out for about two years now.
i am in my 30s and i don't live at home, am not married or anything like that.
i was visiting my mom this past week, i tell you the women has a 6th sense if she weren't a jw shed be a psychic.
Thanks all for the advice! I wouldn't go to a jc if they ever called me into one. I didn't want things to be this way, in my own slow way I was working on fading (last year I quit pioneering, stopped commuting to bethel, stopped going out in service weekly). Unfortunatly this situation is going to force me to do hints differntly then expected. I almost want to disfellowship them before they disfellowship me, lie I was thinking about writing a real sarcastic da letter. But I'm not that brave of a person, as even just fading has still taken me this long. She told me we needed to have an intervention type family meeting with both my sisters whos husbands are both elders and my one sister even serves at bethel, working with elders who are in my congregation. I told he an intervention is ridiculous. Anyway, I know I'm done for, hopefully this will all be over as quickly as possible.
i've been mentally out for about two years now.
i am in my 30s and i don't live at home, am not married or anything like that.
i was visiting my mom this past week, i tell you the women has a 6th sense if she weren't a jw shed be a psychic.
I've been mentally out for about two years now. I am in my 30s and I don't live at home, am not married or anything like that. I was visiting my mom this past week, I tell you the women has a 6th sense if she weren't a jw shed be a psychic. Anyway I had an argument with my "worldly" bf over the phone and I was upset so she caught me at a vulnerable moment and asked if I was sleeping with him. I admitted to it. She knew about my doubts and such but as long as I plaed like a nice little witness vs he was ok with them. But my admittance has caused the crumble. She told my sister who's husband is an elder. I know it's only a matter of time until she lets other family members know and soon enough I'm sure I will be called in for a judicial committee. Mom called this evening asking why I didn't go to the meeting today. I told her I don't feel like it. She was in tears saying that I hated my family, and she's never gonna be able to talk to me ect. I told her that she didn't have to stop talking to me and I told her she knows for herself jws don't have the truth. She was saying I should stay in for the family and I can have a clean life As a jw...anyway sorry for the rambling I just need some support from those of you who have been here.
30 that seems to put jw's at a cross-roads?
i've known so many who have decided to abandon ship at either the age of 30 or either after 30 years of being baptized.
i fall into the former category.
My first major dout happened at age 29, I had a hard time with turning 30. I was uneasy with myself, the doubts didn't go away and I begain to loose spirtual goals, instead I wanted to have at least one kid and get a house. I watched hgtv and longed for a home of my own. I wasn't married, apparently I missed the jw ship of getting married at 20 and the pool of eligible brothers was shrinking, fortunately after some months that didn't matter much to me because the doubts continued and I was completely mentally out by my 31 st birthday. I even celebrated it a little. But I still can't completely shake this religion from my life, I still attend meetings and such, ill be 32 this February.
https://sites.google.com/site/silence1492/facebook-youtube.
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Funny when you click the tab to look at the apostate web sits, it says there are bad people on jw net...lol!
ok, advise needed my friends!
the idea of fading sounds really nice to me and i would love to do it, but i'm just a big "chicken" and can't bring myself to stop all the jw nonsense.
i continue going to meetings and service out of some sort of fear, i know if i start missing too many people will be bothering me with phone calls and visits and such and they will sucker me into toing back.
Ok, advise needed my friends! The idea of fading sounds really nice to me and I would love to do it, but I'm just a big "chicken" and can't bring myself to stop all the jw nonsense. I continue going to meetings and service out of some sort of fear, I know if I start missing too many people will be bothering me with phone calls and visits and such and they will sucker me into toing back. Sometimes I Wonder if it will just be easier for me to leave via a df or da just so I won't be bothered and ill have no excuses or reasons to continue associating with jws, unfortunatly I know that if I do the latter I potentially can loose my family. Any thoughts or advise will be appreciated.