I'm not sure if I can call it a period of depression since I've felt that way since almost 5 years and it is getting worst now. I know that I have the social phobia disorder but I still haven't found a good way to overcome my phobia.
Nicolas
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I'm sick of this boring life!!
by Nicolas ini'm really tired of always having to fight.
i don't have any friends in this world and i don't want to return to the evil watchtower.
it seem to me that everyone else around have fun and enjoy the life while, i still don't know what to i do with my life.
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I'm sick of this boring life!!
by Nicolas ini'm really tired of always having to fight.
i don't have any friends in this world and i don't want to return to the evil watchtower.
it seem to me that everyone else around have fun and enjoy the life while, i still don't know what to i do with my life.
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Nicolas
Well, it was another painful day for me. When I came back home, I was so tired that I could fall asleep in a minute. I still don't know if it's a physical problem or a psychological problem. I saw a doctor and I had a blood sugar test to see if I was diabetic but everything was ok and the doctor told me that it was caused by stress. I'll have to see a psychologist once again if things doesn't get better and I'll need a lot of courage because I had a therapy and I thought that I was ok, so I had stopped the therapy.
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I'm sick of this boring life!!
by Nicolas ini'm really tired of always having to fight.
i don't have any friends in this world and i don't want to return to the evil watchtower.
it seem to me that everyone else around have fun and enjoy the life while, i still don't know what to i do with my life.
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Nicolas
I'm really tired of always having to fight. I don't have any friends in this world and I don't want to return to the evil WatchTower. It seem to me that everyone else around have fun and enjoy the life while, I still don't know what to I do with my life. What will be the difference if I die now instead of in about 60 years? Anyway, nobody will care because I don't anyone who really care for me in this damned world.
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You Are Eve And Adam In Paradise???
by Celtic inwhats your life like and what do you do with your time?.
or put another way, you are right now in paradise, everlasting life stretching out before you endlessly.
what would you like to do with your time, how would you spend your being / time?.
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I would have sex continually. What an awesome experience it should be when both person are perfect. Maybe that would prevent Eve to eat the forbidden fruit.
Black holes are where God divided by zero.
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JW dream...
by wonderwoman77 inlast night i had the most bizare dream.
i had a dream that i was going to the kh with my mom.
which is crazy in two ways, one i would not go to kh and secondly i never see my mom.
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Nicolas
I had a nightmare of this kind last year. I was dreaming that I was in a kingdom hall and all I was doing were wrong so I weren't giving a good example for the new disciples. Well, this is almost the reality, when you are a jw and you are never doing enough...
Black holes are where God divided by zero.
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Post traumatic stress symptom
by Nicolas ini was searching informations about stress because i'm a really stressed person and i found out this site.
it talk about the reactions of a someone who have lived a stressful events.
http://members.aol.com/namangel1/trauma.html here is what they say:" 1. what is trauma?
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Nicolas
I would like to take a look at your site Lady Lee but I get a 404 not found error, when I want to open the site in my browser. And for ElijahTheTurd, I really don't care of what he said, his mind is controlled by the WatchtTower, the organization of Satan, so he can't say something intelligent.
Black holes are where God divided by zero.
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Post traumatic stress symptom
by Nicolas ini was searching informations about stress because i'm a really stressed person and i found out this site.
it talk about the reactions of a someone who have lived a stressful events.
http://members.aol.com/namangel1/trauma.html here is what they say:" 1. what is trauma?.
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Nicolas
I was searching informations about stress because I'm a really stressed person and I found out this site. It talk about the reactions of a someone who have lived a stressful events. http://members.aol.com/NamAngel1/trauma.html Here is what they say:" 1. What is trauma?
The psychiatric definition of "trauma" is "an event outside normal human experience." Trauma generally leaves you feeling powerless, helpless, paralyzed. It tends to be sudden and overwhelming; it "owns" you. You cannot think clearly during and after a severe trauma; at the same time, you are forced to focus your consciousness in an attempt to deal. One author defines trauma as "any sudden and potentially life-threatening event." This refers to one-time traumatic events, but most of it applies to prolonged, repeated trauma as well.""3. Some instances of prolonged trauma.
• physical or sexual abuse as a child or spouse
• war
• life in a prison camp
• life as a refugee
• hostage situations
• life in a concentration camp
• life in some religious cults
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"Symptoms of PTSD can include:• Hypervigilance and scanning
• Elevated startle response
• Blunted affect, psychic numbing
• Aggressive, controlling behavior (a high degree of insistence on getting your way)
• Interruption of memory and concentration
• Depression
• Generalized anxiety
• Violent eruptions of rage
• Substance abuse
• Intrusive recall -- different from normal memory in that it brings with it stress and anxiety
• Dissociative experiences, including dissociative flashbacks
• Insomnia
• Suicidal thoughts
• Survivor guilt"Some of these symptoms really describe how I was feeling while I was in the org. I hope that it will help you too.
Black holes are where God divided by zero.
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Post traumatic stress symptom
by Nicolas ini was searching informations about stress because i'm a really stressed person and i found out this site.
it talk about the reactions of a someone who have lived a stressful events.
http://members.aol.com/namangel1/trauma.html here is what they say:" 1. what is trauma?
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Nicolas
I was searching informations about stress because I'm a really stressed person and I found out this site. It talk about the reactions of a someone who have lived a stressful events. http://members.aol.com/NamAngel1/trauma.html Here is what they say:" 1. What is trauma?
The psychiatric definition of "trauma" is "an event outside normal human experience." Trauma generally leaves you feeling powerless, helpless, paralyzed. It tends to be sudden and overwhelming; it "owns" you. You cannot think clearly during and after a severe trauma; at the same time, you are forced to focus your consciousness in an attempt to deal. One author defines trauma as "any sudden and potentially life-threatening event." This refers to one-time traumatic events, but most of it applies to prolonged, repeated trauma as well.""3. Some instances of prolonged trauma.
• physical or sexual abuse as a child or spouse
• war
• life in a prison camp
• life as a refugee
• hostage situations
• life in a concentration camp
• life in some religious cults
".
"Symptoms of PTSD can include:• Hypervigilance and scanning
• Elevated startle response
• Blunted affect, psychic numbing
• Aggressive, controlling behavior (a high degree of insistence on getting your way)
• Interruption of memory and concentration
• Depression
• Generalized anxiety
• Violent eruptions of rage
• Substance abuse
• Intrusive recall -- different from normal memory in that it brings with it stress and anxiety
• Dissociative experiences, including dissociative flashbacks
• Insomnia
• Suicidal thoughts
• Survivor guilt"Some of these symptoms really describe how I was feeling while I was in the org. I hope that it will help you too.
Black holes are where God divided by zero.
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One of my first real christmas!
by Nicolas intonight, i had one of my first real christmas.
we had a little christmas tree in our home and we opened the gifts with my mother and my little sister.
we were supposed to go at the house of my grandparent for christmas but we weren't able to do it but anyway, i'm really happy to see that this was made with real love.
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Nicolas
Tonight, I had one of my first real christmas. We had a little christmas tree in our home and we opened the gifts with my mother and my little sister. We were supposed to go at the house of my grandparent for christmas but we weren't able to do it but anyway, I'm really happy to see that this was made with real love. It was simple and small but witgh no hypocrisy like in the WatchTower. We had gifts from my aunts and my uncle and they didn't asked us to go in any religion, their love is unconditionnal unlike the love that I saw in the org. It's sad to see that my father didn't lived this moment. I know, that he's dead but he still live in my mind. Finally, I have a message of hope for you. If you still suffer, you should know that time can repair anything. No, it can bring back the peoples that you loved but it can help you to find a new goal in your life. Personnaly, my goal for the year 2002 is to learn to be happy from what the life can give me and to learn to socialize more with other peoples.
Black holes are where God divided by zero.
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How to help an active jw to go out??
by Nicolas inone of my sister who is a jw is still trying to keep contact with us and she's is supposed to shun us.
the problem is that i don't know if i want to see her again, we have almost nothing in common and i see her just once a year but she continue to send us letters at every months and she always told us that she love us.
i would like to do something to make her realize that the wbts doesn't have the truth but i know that she will consider me as an apostate if i say something bad about the jw.. black holes are where god divided by zero.
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Nicolas
One of my sister who is a jw is still trying to keep contact with us and she's is supposed to shun us. The problem is that I don't know if I want to see her again, we have almost nothing in common and I see her just once a year but she continue to send us letters at every months and she always told us that she love us. I would like to do something to make her realize that the WBTS doesn't have the truth but I know that she will consider me as an apostate if I say something bad about the jw.
Black holes are where God divided by zero.