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Why did you become a Jehovah's Witness ?

by Gnosis in

why did you become a jehovah's witness ?.

initially upon entering the religion what were the positive things you experienced ?.

how did that particular way of thinking both benefit and harm you ?.

Why did you become a Jehovah's Witness ?

by Gnosis in

why did you become a jehovah's witness ?.

initially upon entering the religion what were the positive things you experienced ?.

how did that particular way of thinking both benefit and harm you ?.

Greybeard

Am I the only person here who masturbated at a young age and thought I would never have sex with a woman because I most likely will die at armageddon for playing with myself???

Sorry, I just had to ask that LOL… But hey, I'm trying to be honest here and I only did it one time. (Lightning strikes Greybeard) Both my parents started studying with JW's when I was about 2 years old. I believed it 100% and never asked questions. It really did bother me that all these "worldly" people were going to die if I didn't get out there and warn them like Noah warned people before the flood. However, the real reason I rushed getting baptized was I wanted to DATE GIRLS AND GET MARRIED! I wanted IT, I didn't want to be deprived of IT. (1 Corinthians 7:5, do not be depriving each other of IT.) I didn't want Armagedon to deprive me of IT. I took the dunk at 17 and got married at 18. I set a new record for getting married young in our area and it became a trend. I also thought baptism would forgive/remove all my sins and assure my 5 acre parcel in paradise among the billions resurrected that we were going to teach the troof too.

My father was an elder most of my life and my brother became one young bless his heart. My father-in-law was a high-up elder with friends in "high places"… My in-laws were in our marriage causing problems from day one. It was a total nightmare. I tried my best to be the good JW and I had the "pioneer spirit" but didn't pioneer much and felt guilty for that. I just could not justify not pioneering before Jehovah. I was very good at the door and defending what I believed to be the "TRUTH". I had the talent and ability to preach but for some reason, it never took first place in my life like it was supposed to. Maybe deep down I didn't really believe YHWH was going to kill all of these beautiful people. IDK...

After seeing all of the hypocrisy among the elders, especially my father-in-law, I lost all desire to be an elder. I could have been one very easily and they were always pushing me to "reach out" but something inside told me I would be better off if I didn't reach for that goal. I had many elder and MS friends but I just didn't feel like joining the competition.

Depression set into my life big time. I LOVED music, was in a few JW bands… (and we were good if I must say myself)… I loved to drink because it took away my guilt feelings and made me feel ok with myself and the world around me. Later in life this became a real hard habit to break and now I have over two years of sobriety.

I was wrongly DF'ed (IMO) for drinking. I was begging the Elders not to DF me balling my eyes out in repentance but they had their minds made up. I was a hard boy to catch, then I got a DUI. I reported it to them and they said, "The only reason you reported it was because it is public knowledge. We are handing you over to Satan." The elders never gave me any real help from alcoholism. They gave me some REAL stupid advice for sure a few times. MY PO told me to take a photo of myself then give it to all the stores that sell alcohol and tell them not to sell to me. He was 1000% serious. So Satan uses AA? I found AA and the rest is history...

Music is a huge part of my life and I hope to soon record another album that will focus on Recovery, Love, Forgiveness and TTATT. If it wasn't for the people at AA I don't know what would have happened to me. Like most of us, I still have tons of baggage the WT/JWorg has inflicted on my life. I am VERY sad because all of my JW family treat me as an "apostate". However I am moving on with my life and learning new things.

I told my family it is impossible for me to believe false prophets. We are supposed to be in paradise already. Come on! Wasn't that "Gods promise"??? The generation change baffled me. Overlapping Generations? Tell me another one please! I was counting on the big A to solve all my problems if by some freak chance I made it.

Now, with no higher education and no preparation for retirement I find myself growing old. Thanks Watchtower for all your lies! Only arrogant bullies would tell the lies you have and not man up to admit how wrong they were. My biggest problem my entire life was being to frigging honest. Have you seen the movie, "Liar Liar"? Thats me, "I CAN"T LIE" or I WILL DIE AT ARMAGEDDON!

Sorry for the book lol,

I love you people here on JWN. You feel like family to me. We all were victims of mind rape.

Love always,

Greybeard

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Luke 3:14, "Also, those in military service would ask him: What shall we also do?

by Greybeard in

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luke 3:14, "also, those in military service would ask him: what shall we also do?

and he said to them: do not harass anybody or accuse anybody falsely, but be satisfied with your provisions.. this scripture boggled my mind even when i was a jw!

why didn't jesus tell them to get out of the military if that is the christain way?

Greybeard

Luke 3:14, " Also, those in military service would ask him: “What shall we also do?” And he said to them: “Do not harass anybody or accuse anybody falsely, but be satisfied with YOUR provisions.”

This scripture boggled my mind even when I was a JW! How do they get around this one? WHY didn't Jesus tell them to GET OUT of the military if THAT is the Christain way? I no longer see it as wrong to protect your fellow country man and those who you love. It is my opinion that no true Christians supported Hitler but many Christains helped bring him down.

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