Research. Research. Research. It really helps tremendously with doubts, and is a must in order to avoid getting sucked back in when you are at a vulnerable spot in your life. About hearing the teachings in your head: It does get better to use a cliche, again the research is invaluable. Read all of JWFacts and WT Documents and you should be set. Read stuff about how nasty the leaders always were from first hand experiences. Watch Howie Tran's video on Lloyd Evan's channel.
Sorry about the annoying behavior of those PIMIs. EXJW Analyzer has some good videos on the statistics of pandemics and wars, etc compared to today. Some old pandemics make this one look like a couple mosquito bites. I mean 1/2 of Europe might have been wiped out by one? Puhleeze JWs. Look at 13-15th century history. This is much better. It is not nothing, but really.
In the 90s they were saying "We are deep in the time of the end" and the end couldn't be more than 15 years away. That would mean paradise right now. Are we in paradise? NO. They are liars. This is narcissistic future faking.
In a couple months they will be saying SOME were thinking this was going to start the GT, and we don't know the day or the hour. Blame the victim, GB, Blame the victim.
Good Luck and stay safe!