So...Go Back! Nobody's stopping you but yourself and your own doubts. If you think that you can tell yourself "don't be gay" and that it's going to happen, you have deeper problems within yourself than what the elders at your local KH can help you with. If you want to go back...just remember that those elders that DF you will know why you were DF. If you don't think that they won't place a stigma against you and that this won't eventually be a subject in the rumor mill, you are only kidding yourself.
Hey, do whatever you feel you have to in order to lead a complete and productive life. If that means going back to the JW's...well, knock yourself out.
BTW...I don't agree with the war, but it's not any different than Hitler's ascent to power in the Germany of the 1930's. People looked and saw then too. You think people didn't cry "doom and gloom" when he annexed austria and czecoslovakia? Of course they did. They could see what his imperial aims were...thinly disguised "liebensraum". There will probably be other conflicts past this one too. Yes, there will be loss of life. Yes, it will probably pretty bad with global implications. Yes, this will forever change the world scene...but that which we endure makes us stronger.
As long as nations keep repeating the mistakes of the past, there will always be these tragic conflicts.
Don't fret...just try to be content with who you are and with your life.
Coon