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  My first time "storming" out!!

  by lookingnow22 in

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  i "stormed" out of a meeting for the first time in my life tonight.

  well, i really just walked really fast, but inside myself i was storming.

  anybody catch some of the insolent comments made in the 6/01km?

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  I found the part on the meeting entertaining?
  What is that scripture: The harvest is great but the workers are few.
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  I confess!

  by noidea in

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  i'm here to confess.

  i've been lurking for some time now.

  i have allot of mixed feelings mostly feelings of loss.

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  GodRules,
  Does this mean that lurking and seeking truth is a gross and unforgivable sin? If seeking truth is a sin, then is it better to seek deception and lies? Is that where I will find everlasting life?
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  I confess!

  by noidea in

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  i'm here to confess.

  i've been lurking for some time now.

  i have allot of mixed feelings mostly feelings of loss.

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  RCat,
  Thanks,
  I thought for a moment I had been judged by the God Squad.
  He or it almost sounded happy about my future prospects.
  Typical
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  I confess!

  by noidea in

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  i'm here to confess.

  i've been lurking for some time now.

  i have allot of mixed feelings mostly feelings of loss.

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  Is the first step to eternal death lurking or masturbating???????
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  I confess!

  by noidea in

  1. jw
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  i'm here to confess.

  i've been lurking for some time now.

  i have allot of mixed feelings mostly feelings of loss.

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  Joanne,
  I use to tell my better half of the things I would learn while lurking. He was uncomfortable with my doubts. I think maybe he is afraid that if I continue probing that I will loose some of that sheltered innocence we naive witnesses tend to have. Not too sheltered but sheltered enough - where maybe he feels more comfortable and trusting with me in the borg. than out. Lurking is kind of like masturbation, I'll keep it to myself.
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  I confess!

  by noidea in

  1. jw
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  i'm here to confess.

  i've been lurking for some time now.

  i have allot of mixed feelings mostly feelings of loss.

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  age 34, gender female, married, inactive husband that encourages meeting attendance but a don't take any bullshit attitude.
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  I confess!

  by noidea in

  1. jw
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  i'm here to confess.

  i've been lurking for some time now.

  i have allot of mixed feelings mostly feelings of loss.

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  Tina.
  Your right!
  Selective memory!
  He would have fit right in as a jw.
  Lot, Noah - Noah, Lot
  both good examples of good faithful men that would fit right in.
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  When did you think Armageddon would come?

  by comment in

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  i was just thinking about this.

  having been raised "in the truth" post-1975, i didn't grow up with any specific year in mind.

  yes, there was the notion of "this generation will by no means pass away," but by the time i was old enough to think about that concept, the people who were born in 1914 (to stretch it out as far as possible, as the society ultimately did) were still only in their 60's.

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  before I was 18. Almost 18 years ago.
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  I confess!

  by noidea in

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  i'm here to confess.

  i've been lurking for some time now.

  i have allot of mixed feelings mostly feelings of loss.

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  ofcmad,
  Thanks,
  I love the quote! I knew Noah was a good man. I don't remember that point being brought out at the hall.LOL
  noidea
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  I confess!

  by noidea in

  1. jw
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  i'm here to confess.

  i've been lurking for some time now.

  i have allot of mixed feelings mostly feelings of loss.

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  I'm here to confess.
  I've been lurking for some time now.
  I have allot of mixed feelings mostly feelings of loss. I am 30 something but feel infantile.
  A little background. Born into and raised a jw one of several kids. Mother a jw and divorced early in my childhood from my father after learning other than the catholic beliefs. I am considered a jw, I attend meetings. Yes, to please my mother. I don't have the heart to break her heart.
  I always remember being told to not listen to apostates. I don't think that someone that doesn't agree with an org. qualifies as one. So it is legal I'm here. Not that it realy matters. I also remember hearing that if someone listened to an apostate that there is a 98% chance that they would leave "the truth" I dont agree with that either. An apostate should be defined as someone that tries to turn away someone from Christ not an org. I would like to call this a - forum for whistle blowers.
  I applaude you. Many of courage. Many of heartbreak. Yet all suffering from deception in one way or another.
  There are many that lurk about wondering where do I fit? A question maybe for those that have crossed a line of no return, I can't return to a life of deception I know too much and see and have seen too much. I am not sure of which way to go foward. I believe in Jehovah but have always have a hard time having a relationship with him, being made to feel I was undeserving not because of inherited sin but because of him not being attainable unless through the FDS. For now I will work on my relationship with him I will have to practice praying instead of bowing my head and counting for appearance sake. Am I the only on that has done that. I will be here to keep up with what is new. I mostly wanted to surface and say "Thank You to all who post" I know that I am not going through this alone. I don't know where my life will lead I guess that is where faith comes in. Faith in Jehovah and not man.