Posts by lilbluekitty

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My story in more detail

by freshstart in

so as i stated in my first post, i was born to witness parents.

from early on, my parents were both quite fanatical about the "truth.

" we couldn't even eat lucky charms cereal because they thought it had satanic connections.

lilbluekitty

At one point, my mom accused me of conspiring with the members of the congregation to make them look like bad parents.

Exactly! My mom was messed up too, and it was her that beat the crap out of me. She is still used in her congregation too and most people adore her. But yeah, whenever my sister and I would get rides from the "friends" because my mother was having a fit or whatever, when we got home she'd grill us trying to figure out if we "told" on her or talked about her to anyone. She'd grab us by our collars and shake us and was sure we were trying to make her look bad.

Anyway, I just wanted to say I totally hear you on that kind of childhood. I think there's more of us out there than the org. chooses to admit. =/ *hugs*

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CO Visits=encouragement?

by lifestooshort in

when i was still a jw i remember my feelings of confusion caused by the co visit.

i just found them so discourging.

i knew what he was going to say.

lilbluekitty

EmptyInside, I think we did know the same guy because I heard he became a D.O. later on. He really seemed to be a nice guy, I knew him when I was a kid in the 90s.

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Anyone been watching American Horror Story or Walking Dead?

by EntirelyPossible in

anyone been watching that or the walking dead?

both shows, in my opinion, are outstanding.. thoughts, likes, dislikes?.

lilbluekitty

I LOOOOOVE The Walking Dead. I'm not really into zombies but this explained why they're like that for the show so I don't mind watching it if they have a "logical" explanation for it. I espescially love the post-apocalyptic feel of the show, I'm pretty much obsessed with that whole genre. Rick is awesome and I'm excited to see what Shane does next. I really hope the little blonde girl is found soon, too.

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CO Visits=encouragement?

by lifestooshort in

when i was still a jw i remember my feelings of confusion caused by the co visit.

i just found them so discourging.

i knew what he was going to say.

lilbluekitty

CO visits for me were never encouraging and so at the end of each meeting that week when the brother would say something about "let's be thankful for this interchange of encouragement" or however it was it was worded, I would be all annoyed and be like, what encouragement?

There were a few COs I really liked though, Bro. Marlowe and Bro. Hurst (sp?) were both kind and funny, especially Bro. Hurst because he was a big, fat jolly man who made the funniest jokes in his talks and when my mom was in pioneer school, he was one of the instructors and they were always teasing each other back and forth. But some of the COs we had afterwards were just awful or seemed to not know what they were doing. The last CO I had down here in TX, I don't remember his name but he was quite young and single and I have this feeling that he was secretly gay, I don't know why. Either that or a woman-hater. He wouldn't talk to any sisters, not even elder's wives. The bros. had wanted him to meet with me since I was new to that congregation and it never happened, (Which was fine by me!).

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If You Never Were A Witness Do You Think You Would've Had A Vastly Different Life?

by minimus in

jw
friends

would you have gone to college?.

would you have gone to jail?.

would you have been wealthy?.

lilbluekitty

There are a lot of things that could have been different about my life had I never been a JW. However it would depend on what religion, if any, most of my family had, or at least my parents. While a JW, I used to imagine what it would be like to be a Jew nowadays but now that I'm out I wouldn't want to be one, as some of you know, I'm thinking of converting to Christianity in general (as I've always belived in God and believe that it's part of my personality to believe and keep searching for evidence of a higher power.)

I don't know whether my mother still would have been abusive or not because I don't know what it is that caused her to be so insane, as I have no other way to put it, to treat me that way. It may not have been as bad though because part of her anger in life was the way her childhood was because her parents were JWs.

I know that I love to learn, and I've always wanted to know the truth, and I think that's part of who I am as a person. I don't know what path it would have lead me on had I not been raised a JW. I imagine I would have been healthier, they would have found out about my Asperger's sooner because my parents would have wanted to take me to the doctor's whereas in my real life they were against it for quite some time.

I would have liked to have gone to college longer (I quit after a year because I was suicidal and anorexic) and if I had I wouldn't be unemployed now. I might even have a child right now. I probably would have married someone else, just because my life's path would have been different, unless of course soulmates are a real concept =P

Anyway, I could say more but you get the gist.

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Holy crap! Sign-language video

by lilbluekitty in

this may not be new to some of you but look at this sign-language video done by the society on learn from the great teacher.. not sure if it will show up:.

if that doesn't work here is the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=booarcubyiy.

lilbluekitty

Blondie and others, I meant no disrespect to the deaf community, I just feel that for me, as a person who does not know sign-language, the man's facial expressions and hip-thrusting and such were quite disturbing to me. I've seen some sign-language things but I never saw one with a man making very sexual faces (I realize the topic was sexual but still) geared towards young children. That's all.

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Holy crap! Sign-language video

by lilbluekitty in

this may not be new to some of you but look at this sign-language video done by the society on learn from the great teacher.. not sure if it will show up:.

if that doesn't work here is the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=booarcubyiy.

lilbluekitty

You should rewatch it though, he looks like a pervert pedophile freak. (Redundant I realize...)

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Holy crap! Sign-language video

by lilbluekitty in

this may not be new to some of you but look at this sign-language video done by the society on learn from the great teacher.. not sure if it will show up:.

if that doesn't work here is the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=booarcubyiy.

lilbluekitty

This may not be new to some of you but look at this sign-language video done by the society on Learn From The Great Teacher.

Not sure if it will show up:

If that doesn't work here is the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=booArCuBYiY

For those that don't know sign-language (I don't) he's saying: "Do you know what they may do to get pleasure for themselves?— Well, they may try to rub your sex organs. Or they will even rub their sex organs against yours. But you should never let anybody play with your penis or vulva. Not even your own brother or sister or your mother or father. These parts of your body are private" ("Learn From The Great Teacher," 2006, p. 171,? par 1; ch. 32, par. 15) Published by Watchtower Bible and Tract Society). That part is bad enough, but you don't even need to know sign language for this. I will let this video speak for itself. 0_o

Yeah, I really want my kids to watch this...right, over my dead body!!!

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Are you sure leaving the JW religion has made your life better?. Lurkers think twice

by mankkeli in

on this forum, i have carefully read most of the experiences of those who left the jw religion, i have even read experiences that have dated back to 2001, i have read the different circumstances surrounding their exits and what ensued upon leaving.

for the majority, i observed they are better remainning in the religion than leaving.

what benefit is there to strain family relationship because you want to be free?, please tell me, of what value is that freedom?,.

lilbluekitty

It's my family's CHOICE to not talk to me but mostly it's because they've been BRAINWASHED into thinking anyone who leaves is evil and an anti-christ.

It seems you think it's better to die slowly inside by being forced to hear all that propaganda and crap they feed us because, oh, well at least our families will still be whole. It's like telling a gay person not to come out and to marry the opposite sex because hey, at least it will make everyone else happy when they know they don't like the opposite sex that way so they'd be LIVNG A LIE.

So, it's better that while a JW I wanted to kill myself every damn day because I was so afraid of dying in Armageddon because I could never live up to JW standards and I had doubts eating away at me that I wanted to at least be able to die by my own hand instead because it was THE ONE THING IN MY LIFE I HAD CONTROL OVER?

F*cking retarded, man.

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Do you remember being warned off about soaps?

by highdose in

i mean tv soaps.

i remember for a while they were a sign of a deeply unspirtual person ... all that time that could have been spent door to door instead!.

lilbluekitty

I totally remember. As a kid in the 90s, I remember my JW aunt watched a lot of soaps and I (back then) thought she was horrible and "worldly" for it. Now I don't care. Watch what you want, it's your conscience. Personally for me I can't stand them but certain drama-type shows at night do draw me in so I tend to avoid them, especially the ones that have adultery in them, they sicken me and make me angry. (Think Mad Men, which would be awesome if Don Draper wasn't always cheating on Betty.)