I guess sometimes I get mad at myself because I KNEW a lot of this stuff but chose to go along because I didn't want to lose my family, my friends, my reputation, I kept telling myself things would improve, just wait upon Jehovah he will clear things up. I guess I still feel like I'm finding myself.
I have improved in the sense that I empathize more. I realize now that I can be a wonderful human without the bible or religion. I feel like I'm a more spiritual person than I was before.
I have regressed because I lost ALL my friends. I have to start over. I somehow feel like I need a new objective or purpose in my life. I still want to help people. I just don't know whuch route to take.