simplesally,
I am your friend.
Every day will get better. There is a whole world of wonderful people out there waiting to be your friend. The wonderful part is, now you can decide who you want to have as friends.
Ok, have I said the friend word enough?
You will get to a point when you think of jw's, and feel like you can't believe you ever believed like them, and feel very detached.
You will feel sorry for them, and then angry at them for being so blind, and then sorry again, because you know if you hadn't been thrown out, taught a cruel lesson, you would still believe they are the happiest, most loving people on earth.
The fear that you are making a mistake is from years of fear tactics.
We have been taught God is a loving/fearful/jealous/not-to-be-mocked/vengeful/father figure creator.
You will get to a point when you are so happy and free, "You" can spot a jw in the grocery store, by their dress and the unhappy vacant stare in their eyes..and you will smile at them, knowing they are a jw, and they will smile back. Only thing is they wont be wondering is this a df'd person, they will be thinking, "How can I tie in asparagus with armageddon and recruit this happy woman, because she does not know that she is not really happy, happiness is in the future, must convert, must count time, must earn undeserved everlasting life.."
Grieve, it's part of the process.
Grieve for the loss of a perfect world, full of perfect people, who all have one perfect purpose.
Now admit it, after one perfect 3 day district assembly, weren't you ready to go back to work and deal with the real world? Just to get your numbed brain working again?
Always remember,
The best revenge is living well.
And, to have the finest wine the grapes have to be crushed, and it takes time.