sleep eludes me.
she plays coy, then retreats, laughing as she looks back at me.
i vacate my disheveled bed with less than quiet resignation.
Hello CoCo
Just a quick word to say that I really enjoy reading your posts. I’m not good with expressing my thoughts/feelings, but others do it for me. I love reading books, love poetry and find something soothing in melancholy words. Anyway, I really appreciate your talent and hope you keep on posting more often (but still get some sleep)!
Sinedie
chair dancing to this.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ci8lktsb4uo i love this song.
Gotye- Eyes Wide Open
can any of you guess the bottle and the cause of my embarrassment?.
usualusername you make me laugh!!!!
my fave was roy renouf - district overseer.
always had time for me and seemed to keep thigs real.. heard that on a zone vist he told the governing body the branch was told old and grumpy or something like that!.
worst was michael purbrick.
What did you think of William Heath?
Awwwww!!! I just want to give him a big hug!!!
thanks, I love Coldplay!!
found this on another site a few years back.. .
it was never enough.. i remember the first time as a kid i comprehended that i could never do enough for the organization.. a circuit overseer was giving a talk and said,:.
sunday is meeting, and since you are dressed up you might as well do some field service after the meeting.. monday you should spend an hour or so in the evening preparing for the book study on tuesday.. tuesday is book study.. wednesday should be time for your family study, personal study, or preparation for all three.
I remember that same thing being said from the platform when I was pioneering.
It is the same reason why most of the JWs are never truly happy or satisfied with what they are doing, because there is always more they should do, or in other words if you have time to breathe you are not doing enough!!! I know one pioneer that tried to commit a suicide after not being able to continue pioneering. She felt depressed and worthless because she couldn't do more, and yet many speakers are comfortable to impose their rules on others from the platform, than can cause individuals to want to end their life. Horrible!!!
as many of you know i don't speak english well.
i posted a topic that nobody answered.
NVR2L8 - I agree
as many of you know i don't speak english well.
i posted a topic that nobody answered.
At the moment I am more inclined to be an athiest. However, I am opened minded regarding the unknown.
a convention invitation.
i came home the other day and found an invitation to the upcoming district convention in my door.
i don't believe these are left in the doors of the general public, so a well-meaning witness must have been thinking of me, even though i have not been to the kh in about 7 years.. the leading question on the front immediately got my attention, and made my jaw drop a bit.. i thought i would ask the forum, .
When my mum asked me will I go to the convention, I thought "No way", and that's my answer to your question.
Maybe there were times when I thought I was happy as an active Witness, but I don't think I really was. How can anyone be happy being an active witness knowing the truth about the WTS, their hypocrisy and how many lives have been ruined due to their teachings?
The problem is knowing what I know now is not making me happy either. I feel like everything has been taken from me, being raised as a witness, I never celebrated anything, never had close "wordly" friends that I could turn to now, and my family and friends feel sorry for me as I am "spiritually weak". I can finally understand how those people felt who were standing at the exit of the convention arena.
my pain has been in remission.
i have a morphine pump.
pain broke through toward the end of the medication.
I really feel for you.
I wish I could do more, but know that you are not alone.
You are in my thoughts BOTR.
xx
