Posts by sinedie

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When you left the JW/WT religion, were you really an adult ?

by Phizzy in

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i spent decades in the religion, i was born in, so my world view, my education, my social skills, all were dictated by and controlled by the "religion".. i feel that when i left i was immature in many ways, i had never faced my own mortality, i knew nothing of the reality of evolution, i had never voted in an election, i had never donated blood, i had never confronted the reality of the bibles status etc etc etc.. it was like a child walking off in to the blue yonder, no knowledge, no experience.. the main problem was, i had never really made my own decisions, i had never had to consider all the evidence and then decide for myself.. it was frightening and yet exilarating at the same time, but i was woefully equipped for the real world.. how did you feel ?

confidant ?

perplexed ?

sinedie

The main problem was, I had never really made my own decisions, I had never had to consider all the evidence and then decide for myself.

That’s what is keeping the most of us from becoming adults. I still struggle with that.

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Summer reading

by mrsjones5 in

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friends

ok folks, it's that time of year.

school's out, the kids are running around (well actually staring at the video screen), the days are longer and the night are cool.

with the lazy hot days of summer ahead what's on your reading list?.

sinedie

I'm just now reading Crisis of Conscience!! Other books I have lined up are The Book Thief by Markus Zusak, English History, and some clasics.

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Help! I'm having serious thoughts about going back

by lola28 in

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friends

hello old friends, i've been thinking about going back and need you all to give me your thoughts on it.. the last year has been a horribe one for me, in the span of less than a year the following things have happened to me:.

lost my mom to cancergot hit by a carhad a professional set back that will cost over 600k to resolveended a three and a half year relationshipit just feels like every time i think things are going to get better something else hits me and knocks me down, a small part of me wonders wether i brought all these things on myself because i left the organization (yes i know how silly that sounds) and i have given serious thought about going back.

i need you guys to talk me out of it!.

sinedie

You have one more PM!!!!

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My life ... and how JWD came to be - Part 4

by Simon in

my life ... and how jwd came to be - part 1 .

my life ... and how jwd came to be - part 2 .

my life ... and how jwd came to be - part 3

sinedie

Thank you Len, I found all 5 parts!!!

Sinedie

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My life ... and how JWD came to be - Part 4

by Simon in

my life ... and how jwd came to be - part 1 .

my life ... and how jwd came to be - part 2 .

my life ... and how jwd came to be - part 3

sinedie

Being fairly new on the site and always reading the last page of Active topics, today I decided to do something different and start reading posts from the first page to get to know the history of JWN. Learning that Simon was the man behind it all, I decided to try to find his and Angharad’s story. Unfortunately, when I found it I couldn’t open links for parts 1 and 3 of his story (can anyone help me with that?). I just wanted to thank Simon for having the genius idea and courage to make this site. Reading through all the posts, I can see how many people have found help, encouragement and love on this site when they were abandoned by others (including me). Also, it is encouraging to see people move on, as many who were regularly posting before are living their lives without looking back. As Simon said:

Everytime people get together, everytime someone shares their life story, everytime someon feels safe to ask a question or simply to read what other people have written - it's a little chip appearing in the WTS armour, a little mortar in their walls crumbling. Long may it continue.

I don't intend to become like that. There is no point dedicating your life to hurting the WTS - if you do, it means that they are still hurting you, still influencing your life and still have power over you. It's OK to stick around to get some answers or to do something to help others but if people are replacing the WTS with AntiWTS then I think there is something wrong. You have to let it go and leave it behind and live a happy life. That is and always will be the best revenge on the WTS.

It would be nice to visit the site (or whatever one is around then) in 5 years time to let people know how we're doing and find only a few of the same people still around. Becoming an ExJW should be a process, a stage, and not the final destination that some people make it. We should all aim to become Ex-Ex-JWs and leave everything to do with the WTS behind us. Some will find that easier than others and some have to stick around longer because of friends and family but I think it should be our goal.

I am not really into religious/anti-religious discussions that are common on this site (who’s to say that this won’t change) but I still feel the strong grip of being indoctrinated by the Society. I really want to be one day at that stage where I am living just a normal life, not thinking about the organization, not having any feeling of guilt for pursuing my dreams and living my life the way I want to. Simon, your life story is truly encouraging and inspiring. Also, for the most part, I admire the type of people that have come together on this site, their abundance of intellect, creativity and compassion. Thank you for keeping the site alive all these years, and allowing others to get help after their fall from WT's cloud to reality.

Sinedie

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She jumped off the dam...

by TimeBandit in

back in 2003/4 when i was living in truth or consequences, new mexico there was this sister and her non witness husband that moved into our area.

it was plain to see that the sister was suffering from serious mental problems.

she was a very nice lady, but was unstable a lot of the time.

sinedie

Hello TimeBandit,

She was invited to your wedding, you stopped to say hello to her, and you showed her you cared for her while she was still alive. That is much more than others have done for her. She must have felt that you had a good heart and that you cared. I am very sad when I hear stories like this. No human should be ever made to feel like death is the only option. Again you are keeping the memory of Patricia alive, which is more than others from that cong. are doing for her. There should be more kind people like you in this world. Wonderful tribute.

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I didn't get to play School Sports :-( ...did you?

by tresdecu in

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friends

just started watching 'friday night lights' .... great show, but it's making me a little bitter!

17 years after high school, i am still bummed i didn't get to play football or baseball.

i knew my elder dad would get busted from the others in the elders club.

sinedie

I was allowed to join school's dance group and choir. However, I wasn’t allowed to perform with them at school plays or anywhere else, so I needed to quit because everyone else were constantly disappointed with me because they couldn't count on me.

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