Hi Ladybug,
Thanks for sharing on this db wih us. I left, escaped, ran out, in March of this year.
I certainly understand how a lot of people feel with a complete turnaround in their lives. Talk about an identity crisis! I was a jw for 28 years.
However, just to tell you my feelings on this, they have been the opposite. Everytime a I think 'i'm not a jw anymore' I get a little thrill of joy. I so appreciate the freedom to think for myself, pursue new information, and LIKE 'worldly' people.
Granted, it's taking some time to make friends, but it's a wonderful journey. I often think on 'meeting' nites how wonderful it is not to drag myself out to somewhere I didn't want to go.
Plus, on Sunday mornings, you'll find me at the beach with my grandkids.
For me, it's been such a positive experience.
Not that i'm disagreeing with you or saying you should feel this way. It's just letting you know how I feel.
All the best,
Pat