Well done Jack ! Those little steps are so liberating, and good for the soul !
I never carried a Suicide Card in the later years of being in, but as soon as I had left I went to my family Doctor and got my records amended to say that I would accept a B.T or whatever if necessary at any time. I explained why, that I was no longer a JW, and would accept such things, and he said " I bet you will !".
Fading was my preferred exit, as I have so many relatives in, and they can still speak to me. I also found it Therapeutic to research all the JW errors, not just doctrine, but even attitudes to things, and to expunge all that from my thinking.
It is now as though I never was a JW as far as beliefs, thoughts, and feelings go, and it is rather wonderful !