I fully intended to fade after the Memorial in the year I left, so I attended the Mid-week meeting just after, intending to slowly miss the odd meeting, gradually increasing the gaps, the usual,fade.
But that night, I walked out of the Meeting straight after the final prayer, stood in the car park and looked back at the K.H and thought : " I can never set foot in their again".
So I stopped , cold turkey. Probably easier as it happened, had I attended the odd meeting, "concerned" J.W's would have asked me why I was missing before, and I would have had to lie.
For a long time, just passing the K.H. made me feel a bit nauseous, but eventually I did go back in, for the odd family Funeral only.
To this day I am a "faded" (inactive) "JW" , it makes relations with JW family members easier than if I had disassociated.
It would be unbearable even now to attend a normal meeting, I would not be able to listen to all the nonsense and keep my fat gob shut !